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So it's a girl. Me and Emily went to my ultrasound yesterday, a certain boy CHOSE not to come. It's all more real to me now and I need to start making a world that's okay for this baby to come into. So with that Ive finally made my decision to not put up with this emotional and verbal abuse anymore. I do not need any man's, or shall I say boy's help. As hard as it will be, I CAN do this on my own, and I mostly like will be. I'll accept his help and presence when offered but I won't depend on it and surely won't ask for it. Eventually, and I'll have to force myself, but I will no longer be attracted to him. I won't feed into anymore lies. I won't be optimistic or hopeful for him, because that has done nothing but brought me down.