....GAHHH!

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I cant stand myself anymore. Im always depressed now. Its like im..stupid. I cry over EVERYTHING && i have so much wrong with me. Im scared im gonna have to get surgery && then i cant go to my daddys..or something like that knowing my luck.. && what if i have a boyfriend for thoose 9 days? i'd be leaving him..&& i'd prolly miss him. But i doubt i'll have a boyfriend..? Cause i sure aint asking noone out && i dont go anywhere for anyone to ask me out... Im gonna ask ethan if he will take the vo with me up to mcdonalds today. i need to see my friends. i need freaking civilization! Ethan tried to call me like 5 bagillion times last night && i was asleep & when i woke up i tried to call him back but he didnt answer. I wonder if i did something to make him mad at me..? ugh. i dont need my freaking best friend mad at me. I didnt do nothing to get him mad at me, nahh. i'm just worried..lol. grrr. haha my gramma just said garage && like with an accent.. it was pretty gosh darn funny. but idk.. i guess im tired of being depressed.. i just need someone to come sweep me off my feet & bring me happiness..&& make me giggle.. && just.. idk im just tired of crying. But every boyfriend i have just doesnt freaking add up. He doesnt treat me like Brent did. I dont know what my problem is. I know i wont ever get a guy like Brent back...&& i just want someone like that. someone sweet..&& cuddly..&& funny.. && someone that makes me laugh even if im sitting here crying.. Someone to fight with me over who loves who more... i just need somebody.. I guess i need to talk to someone. I need Ethan =[.He's the only person i go to now cause everyone just turns on me. Except for Lisa && Taylor. I love them with all my heart too. thoose three are my freaking world! I want to go back to school..so fucking bad. I miss my friends =[.... I cant freaking wait till January!!!!!!!! i will be able to go back to school. Well..i guess im gonna go before i start to cry...

Kiss my ass && call me a cunt =[