Yes, Still alive and well
Yet I feel like my existance isn't worth a whole lot at this point except as a supplier of money and work.
I feel like drinking until I can't see straight and then sleeping for a year.
Ive been up in Tampa for a few days and I already feel so horrible, like I can't adjust to things up here. Even the littlest things are starting to bother me. I hate this apartment with such a passion. I hate that he lives in such a shithole.
I'm to the point of breaking down, but I don't want to feel weak and useless.
I met Rayvan tonight, she's pretty cool. I hated myself when I saw her, she's beautiful, outgoing and crazy. I such a shallow person. I hated how skinny she was, and moreso when she got dressed for the Castle in such an awesome outfit.
Ever since I've been up here, that's all I think about. I guess not having him around isn't having such a great effect on me mentally.
All I want is to be the one everyone looks at and praises....
~.//Phoe..][Forever[]//
I feel like drinking until I can't see straight and then sleeping for a year.
Ive been up in Tampa for a few days and I already feel so horrible, like I can't adjust to things up here. Even the littlest things are starting to bother me. I hate this apartment with such a passion. I hate that he lives in such a shithole.
I'm to the point of breaking down, but I don't want to feel weak and useless.
I met Rayvan tonight, she's pretty cool. I hated myself when I saw her, she's beautiful, outgoing and crazy. I such a shallow person. I hated how skinny she was, and moreso when she got dressed for the Castle in such an awesome outfit.
Ever since I've been up here, that's all I think about. I guess not having him around isn't having such a great effect on me mentally.
All I want is to be the one everyone looks at and praises....
~.//Phoe..][Forever[]//