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Well, This is gonna be long--Please Read* <3This is like what I've been thinking about for a while now--Besides .Him.*
It's like..Sometimes in life we all come to a point where we are afraid to look ahead but yet don't want to look over our shoulders to remember where we have been. Welll just either want to forget about our pasts or atleast a few events that may have taken place. It's not that we are ashamed of my pasts but it's just time to take our lives one step up from where we have been. I feel as though it's time to take a step up in my life. I'm a bit tired of my past and tired of repeating the same cycle in which I have been around in for years. I dont' have the slightest idea where this is coming from or why it is on my mind but the truth is that this has been on my mind for quite some time now. As I sit here and reflect upon my past I have maybe a handful of regrets in my life but non so big that It kills me ya know? But I do have a lot that I would like to forget. 50% of what I want to forget wasn't my fault but the truth remains no matter how hard you try you can't forget things that happen. And you can't make them go away no matter how ;you wish they would. It's all apart of who you are now. It's like on of those games you play where you have 2 choices and you chose one and then upon your answer you get two new choices and so on and so on til you get to the end and it gives you a summary of whatever it is you were answering questions about to begin with. Well that's kind of like your past each decision you made in life lead you to another to make but if you were to go back and change something you really wouldn't be here reading this because you would be a different person and who knows you may not be here at all based on any decisions you made differently. Who knows maybe something better might have happen maybe not. you will never know. so tell me why it is over tons of Americans spend years of their life relecting on their pasts when that is exactly what it is your past. What's the point in fretting over it. It's not going to change the fact that it is your past and it certainly isnt' going to change it now is it? I bet if we spent half the energy that we spend on thinking about the past and use it to think about the present or the future maybe we all might not be as fucked up because we will be seeing where we are going. It's like driving a car you can't drive a car just staring in the rear view mirror and never looking forward, what would happen? you would eventually wreck into something. Kind of like your life right if you are too worried worring about things that happened behind you, you will totally miss what is going on infront of you ya know. I cant' say that I will never think of the past again because like i said the past is part of who we are but I am definately going to spend alot more time thinking about the decisions I have to make in the present and future than the ones I have made in the past.
Wow, That was kinda long wasn't it?!*Haha--* But.. I guess I'll tell you all about my day today!*
_*h0mer0on*_
Did a whole lotta nothing!* I was bored outta my mind!* Me and Ariel and Sarah mostly talked all the time!*
_*res0uce*_
Went to Mr.Barker's class and listened to some woman sing opera.. ugh!* Haha..
Then I went to P.E. and I was partner's with Monty and man, me and him are so dumb! Haha!
_*ms.hatcher*_
Umm--Mostly talked!* Took Edu-Test and had a really good talk with Sarah!* She told me that for one thing I didn't look the same, I wasn't acting the same or anything!*So Yeah--* I'm a lot quiter than normally now that i dont have him in my life* _*lunch*_
..Umm* I ate!*Haha--Talked to Mays!* He's like my brother he's the coolist!* :)
Then.. Monty asked me out and I told him n0..That joseph collins guy asked me out and i told him no*
_*l0ckers*_
Monty told me that he told Scott i was dating him!*Omg--I don't like Scott!!* Shew--So, I have to break up with him tomorrow, He asks me out all the time.. can't he just get the picture?!*Haha.*
_*the bus*_
Well--Hubbard road the bus!* I didn't set with him tho, Then he goes--Set with me, I go.. No, He's like well I'll set with you, I was like..Umm.. Okay* So Yeah.. then I told him about me moving to North Carolina and wow, he was like Ohhh noo*haha.. And like he looked at me and goes, I'm sorry and I go, I'm sure you are* Everything he would say I was like, That's what Tessa's for or what about Tessa--He goes, Gosh!Haha. Ahh, he'll be okay* and so will I * =/
Welp* Everyone leave me some comments*
It's like..Sometimes in life we all come to a point where we are afraid to look ahead but yet don't want to look over our shoulders to remember where we have been. Welll just either want to forget about our pasts or atleast a few events that may have taken place. It's not that we are ashamed of my pasts but it's just time to take our lives one step up from where we have been. I feel as though it's time to take a step up in my life. I'm a bit tired of my past and tired of repeating the same cycle in which I have been around in for years. I dont' have the slightest idea where this is coming from or why it is on my mind but the truth is that this has been on my mind for quite some time now. As I sit here and reflect upon my past I have maybe a handful of regrets in my life but non so big that It kills me ya know? But I do have a lot that I would like to forget. 50% of what I want to forget wasn't my fault but the truth remains no matter how hard you try you can't forget things that happen. And you can't make them go away no matter how ;you wish they would. It's all apart of who you are now. It's like on of those games you play where you have 2 choices and you chose one and then upon your answer you get two new choices and so on and so on til you get to the end and it gives you a summary of whatever it is you were answering questions about to begin with. Well that's kind of like your past each decision you made in life lead you to another to make but if you were to go back and change something you really wouldn't be here reading this because you would be a different person and who knows you may not be here at all based on any decisions you made differently. Who knows maybe something better might have happen maybe not. you will never know. so tell me why it is over tons of Americans spend years of their life relecting on their pasts when that is exactly what it is your past. What's the point in fretting over it. It's not going to change the fact that it is your past and it certainly isnt' going to change it now is it? I bet if we spent half the energy that we spend on thinking about the past and use it to think about the present or the future maybe we all might not be as fucked up because we will be seeing where we are going. It's like driving a car you can't drive a car just staring in the rear view mirror and never looking forward, what would happen? you would eventually wreck into something. Kind of like your life right if you are too worried worring about things that happened behind you, you will totally miss what is going on infront of you ya know. I cant' say that I will never think of the past again because like i said the past is part of who we are but I am definately going to spend alot more time thinking about the decisions I have to make in the present and future than the ones I have made in the past.
Wow, That was kinda long wasn't it?!*Haha--* But.. I guess I'll tell you all about my day today!*
_*h0mer0on*_
Did a whole lotta nothing!* I was bored outta my mind!* Me and Ariel and Sarah mostly talked all the time!*
_*res0uce*_
Went to Mr.Barker's class and listened to some woman sing opera.. ugh!* Haha..
Then I went to P.E. and I was partner's with Monty and man, me and him are so dumb! Haha!
_*ms.hatcher*_
Umm--Mostly talked!* Took Edu-Test and had a really good talk with Sarah!* She told me that for one thing I didn't look the same, I wasn't acting the same or anything!*So Yeah--* I'm a lot quiter than normally now that i dont have him in my life* _*lunch*_
..Umm* I ate!*Haha--Talked to Mays!* He's like my brother he's the coolist!* :)
Then.. Monty asked me out and I told him n0..That joseph collins guy asked me out and i told him no*
_*l0ckers*_
Monty told me that he told Scott i was dating him!*Omg--I don't like Scott!!* Shew--So, I have to break up with him tomorrow, He asks me out all the time.. can't he just get the picture?!*Haha.*
_*the bus*_
Well--Hubbard road the bus!* I didn't set with him tho, Then he goes--Set with me, I go.. No, He's like well I'll set with you, I was like..Umm.. Okay* So Yeah.. then I told him about me moving to North Carolina and wow, he was like Ohhh noo*haha.. And like he looked at me and goes, I'm sorry and I go, I'm sure you are* Everything he would say I was like, That's what Tessa's for or what about Tessa--He goes, Gosh!Haha. Ahh, he'll be okay* and so will I * =/
Welp* Everyone leave me some comments*