several reflections
1.
you know, i'm really undependable. i mean, i try and try, but i always end up as a flake.
i blame it all on an inability to say no. yeah i'll come over, yeah i'll take care of it and do you know what happens? i don't. you know, scratch that. i blame it on me.
2.
i'm really questioning my future. sure i'm going to college and shit, but what am i going to do with that? i haven't the slightest idea what to do with a college degree..
3.
seems like my friends and aquaintances are dropping like flies. not dying, mind you, but we're just losing contact. i try not to think it's from lack of trying, but you know i think it is, on both our parts. i mean, i have had people that i thought i'd always have some kind of connection with drop off the face of the earth, and that kind of troubles me.
4.
i miss all these people, that's truth, but also i'm kind of glad. it means we're all dynamic, constantly changing our outlooks and surroundings for what we feel is more productive, perhaps even better for all parties involved. still, though, change is always a difficulty.
5.
ah, relationships... i don't even see a point to all of that business. sure it's pleasant and ideally mutually beneficial, but it seems way too invasive. i've had several opportunities since my last horrible decision, but i feel like it's all going to end up as just that. my last coupling was based entirely on what i would assume was solely physical attraction; everything else was dysfunction. now i'm not afraid of commitment, i just think my standards are too high.
mister darin still makes bad decisions. ah well.
i also wonder if anyone even reads this anymore. is there any point to livejournal?
you know, i'm really undependable. i mean, i try and try, but i always end up as a flake.
i blame it all on an inability to say no. yeah i'll come over, yeah i'll take care of it and do you know what happens? i don't. you know, scratch that. i blame it on me.
2.
i'm really questioning my future. sure i'm going to college and shit, but what am i going to do with that? i haven't the slightest idea what to do with a college degree..
3.
seems like my friends and aquaintances are dropping like flies. not dying, mind you, but we're just losing contact. i try not to think it's from lack of trying, but you know i think it is, on both our parts. i mean, i have had people that i thought i'd always have some kind of connection with drop off the face of the earth, and that kind of troubles me.
4.
i miss all these people, that's truth, but also i'm kind of glad. it means we're all dynamic, constantly changing our outlooks and surroundings for what we feel is more productive, perhaps even better for all parties involved. still, though, change is always a difficulty.
5.
ah, relationships... i don't even see a point to all of that business. sure it's pleasant and ideally mutually beneficial, but it seems way too invasive. i've had several opportunities since my last horrible decision, but i feel like it's all going to end up as just that. my last coupling was based entirely on what i would assume was solely physical attraction; everything else was dysfunction. now i'm not afraid of commitment, i just think my standards are too high.
mister darin still makes bad decisions. ah well.
i also wonder if anyone even reads this anymore. is there any point to livejournal?