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don't read this if you really don't care.
i rather not have you be wasting your time.
well here it goes...
after reading erins journal i have come to realize alot about myself.
i have gone through so much in my life that i won't even begin to explain.
i mean i'm sure there is worse that has happened in this world and i'm not
asking you to feel bad for me. cause i really don't want you to.
so don't!
i have grown up pritty much with out a father.
i mean he lives what 10 minutes away from me but i never
see him nor do i talk to him. i don't see why to make an
effort of trying to call him when all he is going to be is
drunk or too busy to talk cause he is drinking.
he has put me through the worst years of my life.
i just wish i was strong enough to stand up for myself.
but instead i just drop to my feet in tears.
i wish i could just let my past go sometimes but i guess i can't.
i have changed so much about myself in this last year.
people like lindsey, alex, sean, lydia, angela, erin, chris...
they have all shown me so much without even knowing it.
i mean i don't know what i would do with out my family or friends.
i'm just so glad to be living hear today even if it is without
a complete family. i'm just lucky to have my mom and sister and
all my friends i do. they all mean the world to me.
lindsey and how much fun we have had in these 10 wonderful years.
alex and those amazing 9 months of my life. i wouldn't change a
thing about it even though we don't talk anymore.
sean and how amazing of a brother you are. and all the fun times we have.
lydia and that smile that always cheers me up. or the hug that makes me
feel so good inside. or just all the wonderful times we have together.
angela and just amazing she is. everything she says makes me laugh.
erin and even though she has lied so much i find her to be the most
amazing girl. defn alot of fun. and i love to see her smile.
chris and how wonderful of a guy he is. and how he makes me laugh
when i'm having a bad day. just all the good times we have.
my friends are most amazing. and i love everybit of memories we have.
i me the absolute world to me.
and i know i'm just blahbing on so i will just stop here.
but thanks if you really did take the time to read this.
it means alot to me.
i rather not have you be wasting your time.
well here it goes...
after reading erins journal i have come to realize alot about myself.
i have gone through so much in my life that i won't even begin to explain.
i mean i'm sure there is worse that has happened in this world and i'm not
asking you to feel bad for me. cause i really don't want you to.
so don't!
i have grown up pritty much with out a father.
i mean he lives what 10 minutes away from me but i never
see him nor do i talk to him. i don't see why to make an
effort of trying to call him when all he is going to be is
drunk or too busy to talk cause he is drinking.
he has put me through the worst years of my life.
i just wish i was strong enough to stand up for myself.
but instead i just drop to my feet in tears.
i wish i could just let my past go sometimes but i guess i can't.
i have changed so much about myself in this last year.
people like lindsey, alex, sean, lydia, angela, erin, chris...
they have all shown me so much without even knowing it.
i mean i don't know what i would do with out my family or friends.
i'm just so glad to be living hear today even if it is without
a complete family. i'm just lucky to have my mom and sister and
all my friends i do. they all mean the world to me.
lindsey and how much fun we have had in these 10 wonderful years.
alex and those amazing 9 months of my life. i wouldn't change a
thing about it even though we don't talk anymore.
sean and how amazing of a brother you are. and all the fun times we have.
lydia and that smile that always cheers me up. or the hug that makes me
feel so good inside. or just all the wonderful times we have together.
angela and just amazing she is. everything she says makes me laugh.
erin and even though she has lied so much i find her to be the most
amazing girl. defn alot of fun. and i love to see her smile.
chris and how wonderful of a guy he is. and how he makes me laugh
when i'm having a bad day. just all the good times we have.
my friends are most amazing. and i love everybit of memories we have.
i me the absolute world to me.
and i know i'm just blahbing on so i will just stop here.
but thanks if you really did take the time to read this.
it means alot to me.