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good news, after all the tests, blood that was taken, the catscan, and all the doctors visits, they have finally declared that my lymph node is not cancerous, thank god.
it was not fun dealing with all of that and my arm is all bruised where they took blood so many times in a row, but im alive and i am thankful for that!
now we just have to get to the "root of the problem", i dont know what that means but i have to keep going to doctors and keep taking really good care of myself. i worked today for the first time in a lloooong time and it felt really good.
i am very thankful to be alive. that was a huge scare, and even though it is still not over the scariest part is over, thankfully.
it is really sad when someone who used to be your friend totally changes in like a year or a couple years. i used to have soo many good friends and now they are all really fucking lame. i have learned you cannot trust ANYONE but yourself, and friends do NOT last forever. and girls who talk a bunch of shit and exagerate things to EXTREMES are really annoying too. thats all!
in other news, i started back at work today which sucked. i have to get another job somewhere else. i love my job but i cannot keep working in such a conservative place. i hate not being able to express myself, i have to wear the GAYEST outfit, we have new uniforms and i seriously feel like a man. the top has SHOULDER PADS. who the fuck wears shoulderpads these days. NO ONE. im pissed, so i am going to start looking for another one, it just sucks because this job is so so awesome. we'll see what happens.
jordy and i have been hanging out every day almost and shit is sooo good with us. its pretty great. i just left there actually, i had to get a cab home cuz it was so late, but its cool.
soo just got home, made some pasta, and i am tired as shit so im going to bed!
it was not fun dealing with all of that and my arm is all bruised where they took blood so many times in a row, but im alive and i am thankful for that!
now we just have to get to the "root of the problem", i dont know what that means but i have to keep going to doctors and keep taking really good care of myself. i worked today for the first time in a lloooong time and it felt really good.
i am very thankful to be alive. that was a huge scare, and even though it is still not over the scariest part is over, thankfully.
it is really sad when someone who used to be your friend totally changes in like a year or a couple years. i used to have soo many good friends and now they are all really fucking lame. i have learned you cannot trust ANYONE but yourself, and friends do NOT last forever. and girls who talk a bunch of shit and exagerate things to EXTREMES are really annoying too. thats all!
in other news, i started back at work today which sucked. i have to get another job somewhere else. i love my job but i cannot keep working in such a conservative place. i hate not being able to express myself, i have to wear the GAYEST outfit, we have new uniforms and i seriously feel like a man. the top has SHOULDER PADS. who the fuck wears shoulderpads these days. NO ONE. im pissed, so i am going to start looking for another one, it just sucks because this job is so so awesome. we'll see what happens.
jordy and i have been hanging out every day almost and shit is sooo good with us. its pretty great. i just left there actually, i had to get a cab home cuz it was so late, but its cool.
soo just got home, made some pasta, and i am tired as shit so im going to bed!