daylight com en we wan 'go ome!
I haven't made an entry in like two years.
OOOOOOOOOH where to begin...
I feel like I've tried so hard to please everyone for four years, starting with my family and college, and MY MOM MY MOM MY MOM... and MY DAD. Then work and everything that comes with it, and everything just reached a crescendo towards the tail end of last year... what with the new PMAP board and everything we've had to deal with (amd we're just getting started), that at some point, I short circuited and decided to have just two months to explore, experience, experiment, enjoy, not give as much of a fuck, and get into some trouble. And my god, it worked. I'm surprised at how much damage was done, considering I never set out with ill intentions. However, there's nothing I would undo. Weird how the pattern is so similar to the past of so many people I know... and it's comforting to know that they came out of it just fiiiine.
OH! And people around me are in some deep doo doo of their own. I wish I could help, but all I can really do is watch and listen. I don't like seeing my friends in pain tho :(
Lessons learned:
1. people will love you
2. people will hate you
3. people will love hating you
4. people will hate loving you
5. just cause you don't mean to, or are not doing something wrong doesn't mean that what you're doing is right.
6. just cause you're not evil doesn't mean people think you're good.
7. just cause you're careful doesn't mean you're good.
8. you make mistakes, so fix them.
9. sometimes, it's better to be emotional. emotional people never look evil. oh wait, sometimes they do.
10. the evil can be mistaken for good can be mistaken for evil can be mistaken for good depending on who you're talking to.
11. people will always talk. cause it's fun. business that is not your own is so much more interesting. it's kinda like how the food in other people's houses is better. i think?
12. people who have done baaaaaaad still feel the right to talk.
13. things are only as big or traumatic as you make them.
14. "don't judge my sister, she's not a book!" :D
15. relationships... end. no one has to have a fault, they just do.
16. Tofu chips make you fat. Just tofu however, makes your boobs big. If they grow too fast, people will say you had them done, or you're pregnant :D
17. I'm really straight.
18. New car totally rocks man I'm so in love. I want a picture of it in my wallet. I've decided to name him Meeper.
19. So if you don't sleep around or anything... you never did, and you go home alone, in your car, to your own home, you're ok and you didn't do anything bad, right? you wish! check number 5.
20. YEY WEDDING!!!! "Maaaaawadge... Mawadge is whot brings us togethaaa, tothay." Weddings are nice... they make me cry.
2007 was our bitch
I was 2008's bitch (but it kinda rocked like that).
2009 will be great :) let's put it on the wall when it's done.
ok gonna go activate my DNA now.
OOOOOOOOOH where to begin...
I feel like I've tried so hard to please everyone for four years, starting with my family and college, and MY MOM MY MOM MY MOM... and MY DAD. Then work and everything that comes with it, and everything just reached a crescendo towards the tail end of last year... what with the new PMAP board and everything we've had to deal with (amd we're just getting started), that at some point, I short circuited and decided to have just two months to explore, experience, experiment, enjoy, not give as much of a fuck, and get into some trouble. And my god, it worked. I'm surprised at how much damage was done, considering I never set out with ill intentions. However, there's nothing I would undo. Weird how the pattern is so similar to the past of so many people I know... and it's comforting to know that they came out of it just fiiiine.
OH! And people around me are in some deep doo doo of their own. I wish I could help, but all I can really do is watch and listen. I don't like seeing my friends in pain tho :(
Lessons learned:
1. people will love you
2. people will hate you
3. people will love hating you
4. people will hate loving you
5. just cause you don't mean to, or are not doing something wrong doesn't mean that what you're doing is right.
6. just cause you're not evil doesn't mean people think you're good.
7. just cause you're careful doesn't mean you're good.
8. you make mistakes, so fix them.
9. sometimes, it's better to be emotional. emotional people never look evil. oh wait, sometimes they do.
10. the evil can be mistaken for good can be mistaken for evil can be mistaken for good depending on who you're talking to.
11. people will always talk. cause it's fun. business that is not your own is so much more interesting. it's kinda like how the food in other people's houses is better. i think?
12. people who have done baaaaaaad still feel the right to talk.
13. things are only as big or traumatic as you make them.
14. "don't judge my sister, she's not a book!" :D
15. relationships... end. no one has to have a fault, they just do.
16. Tofu chips make you fat. Just tofu however, makes your boobs big. If they grow too fast, people will say you had them done, or you're pregnant :D
17. I'm really straight.
18. New car totally rocks man I'm so in love. I want a picture of it in my wallet. I've decided to name him Meeper.
19. So if you don't sleep around or anything... you never did, and you go home alone, in your car, to your own home, you're ok and you didn't do anything bad, right? you wish! check number 5.
20. YEY WEDDING!!!! "Maaaaawadge... Mawadge is whot brings us togethaaa, tothay." Weddings are nice... they make me cry.
2007 was our bitch
I was 2008's bitch (but it kinda rocked like that).
2009 will be great :) let's put it on the wall when it's done.
ok gonna go activate my DNA now.