Grrrr...
mom: where's my cutter? it's not here yet.
me: i'll get it wait lang. *goes up and gets cutter*
mom: thanks
me: *continues computering*
mom: i said thank you and you didn't even say thanks for letting you use it
me: thanks. sorry.
mom: sometimes i think you should watch the way you act.
me: *nothing*
mom: night.
me: night. sweet dreams. sleep well.
mom: you're so plastic.
what the hell?? ano baaaa?!?! if i just shut up and say nothing, i'm rude. if i force myself to be super nice and sweet even when i'm in "shut up" mode, i'm plastic!
i force myself to be sweet and perfect daughter-ish and sipsip just cause i'm the youngest only girl even when i'm not in the mood 95% of the time! the other 5%, i just shut up. they get pissed when i'm quiet lang and say i'm moody. ano ba??! GRRRRRRR...
i've never rebelled or did anything pa-teen-angst EVER. if i have, i went through great lengths to hide everything so they wouldn't be disappointed. i never even really did anything that hardcore.
my grades are fine.
i stick to their rules even if the same rules were lifted from other people when they turned 18. if i break them, again, i go through great lengths to cover my tracks.
they are EVERYWHERE.
i never complain to them about ANYTHING.
i wish i could have a clone stand-in that's super sweet and super perfect for when i really just don't want to deal with them... or be home, for that matter.
sorry if i sound heavy and bad vibes now and i'm disappointing everyone who thought i was good vibes 24/7.
me: i'll get it wait lang. *goes up and gets cutter*
mom: thanks
me: *continues computering*
mom: i said thank you and you didn't even say thanks for letting you use it
me: thanks. sorry.
mom: sometimes i think you should watch the way you act.
me: *nothing*
mom: night.
me: night. sweet dreams. sleep well.
mom: you're so plastic.
what the hell?? ano baaaa?!?! if i just shut up and say nothing, i'm rude. if i force myself to be super nice and sweet even when i'm in "shut up" mode, i'm plastic!
i force myself to be sweet and perfect daughter-ish and sipsip just cause i'm the youngest only girl even when i'm not in the mood 95% of the time! the other 5%, i just shut up. they get pissed when i'm quiet lang and say i'm moody. ano ba??! GRRRRRRR...
i've never rebelled or did anything pa-teen-angst EVER. if i have, i went through great lengths to hide everything so they wouldn't be disappointed. i never even really did anything that hardcore.
my grades are fine.
i stick to their rules even if the same rules were lifted from other people when they turned 18. if i break them, again, i go through great lengths to cover my tracks.
they are EVERYWHERE.
i never complain to them about ANYTHING.
i wish i could have a clone stand-in that's super sweet and super perfect for when i really just don't want to deal with them... or be home, for that matter.
sorry if i sound heavy and bad vibes now and i'm disappointing everyone who thought i was good vibes 24/7.