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wellll, long time, no write. hah.
i have some prettty bad news. in august my parents have been discussing moving down south in the virginia / north carolina area and are getting quite serious about it. it scares me a little. i know it's probably for sure because my dad was talking about finding schools with a "competitive lacrosse team". and my mom was telling me "oh shelby, there are soo many more options down there than there are here." and the truth is, i dont care. i seriously don't. i just don't. i don't wanna meet new people. i don't want to graduate with any other people other than the people here<3, i don't want to wear any other color than green and white, i don't want to play for any other team other than the eagles. i love it here. i love everything about here. i'm not ready to leave. i mean, my whole life is here. alll the memories. my best friend, how will i survive without her? how am i going to do this? yes yes i know i have 8 months still and it seeems like hellla long time, but it's not. 8 more months left with the people i love. never willl i pick up a volleyballl in my gym ever again. it upsets me. what if the people don't like me? who will i hang out with on weekends? and get ready with before homecoming? and sit with in lunch and gossip to. or maybe i am just over thinking everything. maybe the girls will be really nice and realllly understanding. i just, i dont know. i've never had to do this before. it's getting harder and harder with each day that goes by because i know that is one less day i will ever be in those halls. one plus is that i will be that much closer to danny. but things havent been the same. we just don't talk. he just stopped calling and it's absolutly terrible. i cannot allow myself to lose him, but it's harder than it seems.
i just, i dont know
i love you
shelby.
i have some prettty bad news. in august my parents have been discussing moving down south in the virginia / north carolina area and are getting quite serious about it. it scares me a little. i know it's probably for sure because my dad was talking about finding schools with a "competitive lacrosse team". and my mom was telling me "oh shelby, there are soo many more options down there than there are here." and the truth is, i dont care. i seriously don't. i just don't. i don't wanna meet new people. i don't want to graduate with any other people other than the people here<3, i don't want to wear any other color than green and white, i don't want to play for any other team other than the eagles. i love it here. i love everything about here. i'm not ready to leave. i mean, my whole life is here. alll the memories. my best friend, how will i survive without her? how am i going to do this? yes yes i know i have 8 months still and it seeems like hellla long time, but it's not. 8 more months left with the people i love. never willl i pick up a volleyballl in my gym ever again. it upsets me. what if the people don't like me? who will i hang out with on weekends? and get ready with before homecoming? and sit with in lunch and gossip to. or maybe i am just over thinking everything. maybe the girls will be really nice and realllly understanding. i just, i dont know. i've never had to do this before. it's getting harder and harder with each day that goes by because i know that is one less day i will ever be in those halls. one plus is that i will be that much closer to danny. but things havent been the same. we just don't talk. he just stopped calling and it's absolutly terrible. i cannot allow myself to lose him, but it's harder than it seems.
i just, i dont know
i love you
shelby.