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i need to vent.
the past week, felt so sad. i dont know why. why do we feel sad? why dont i know why i feel sad?
i want to cry. its the weridest emotion to be felt. you want to cry but you dont know what for.
doesnt there have to be reason? what is my reason?
maybe i want to feel love. i know i have love, i know i should feel it. but i dont.
i have felt pretty ugly this week. one of those days, weeks, months, years, when you just feel ugly.
nothing can be really said to change that, unless i say it to myself, meaning only the change within myself.
self-assessment angers me. its too much self-involved and i do it all the time. thinking about myself. its so self-involved and you will grow away from people, and die lonely. the way im going i'll die lonely.
how do i not self-assess and not think of myself and the way i am ?
so many questions. but who has the answers? thats a question itself.
no one can have all the answers? does anyone have my answers? (self-invovled once again)
this whole entry is self-asessment and every past, present and furture entry will be the same, i think. maybe its time to holiday away from here, holiday away from a journal.
it angers me.
the past week, felt so sad. i dont know why. why do we feel sad? why dont i know why i feel sad?
i want to cry. its the weridest emotion to be felt. you want to cry but you dont know what for.
doesnt there have to be reason? what is my reason?
maybe i want to feel love. i know i have love, i know i should feel it. but i dont.
i have felt pretty ugly this week. one of those days, weeks, months, years, when you just feel ugly.
nothing can be really said to change that, unless i say it to myself, meaning only the change within myself.
self-assessment angers me. its too much self-involved and i do it all the time. thinking about myself. its so self-involved and you will grow away from people, and die lonely. the way im going i'll die lonely.
how do i not self-assess and not think of myself and the way i am ?
so many questions. but who has the answers? thats a question itself.
no one can have all the answers? does anyone have my answers? (self-invovled once again)
this whole entry is self-asessment and every past, present and furture entry will be the same, i think. maybe its time to holiday away from here, holiday away from a journal.
it angers me.