So, this is what depression is like.
It's even harder when you feel like you're the only one working.
I have successfully fallen into adepressive state, hitting keys on the keyboard is my way of venting. It's getting hard for me.. it really is. I'm a tthe point where crying during my daily showers is a routine, where a smile,hiding so many disatrous emotions, is put on my face, where there'll be random breakdowns in my room to the point to where I have to run to the bathroom due to vomit... i feel sso worthless. so fucking worthless, its like nothing is good for me right now. family, kit, friends.. yeah they're there to cheer me up but no one will ever fully understand what i'm feeling.
Bad habits are starting to kick in, not eating right, being unhealthy.. omg.. it sucks. im so surprised i still have tears in me. its not even that im in pain its just hta tim so miserable. i wish i could disappear. when i try to stop crying, it doesnt work out that way..
I NEED A TIME OUT FROM LIFE.
I have successfully fallen into adepressive state, hitting keys on the keyboard is my way of venting. It's getting hard for me.. it really is. I'm a tthe point where crying during my daily showers is a routine, where a smile,hiding so many disatrous emotions, is put on my face, where there'll be random breakdowns in my room to the point to where I have to run to the bathroom due to vomit... i feel sso worthless. so fucking worthless, its like nothing is good for me right now. family, kit, friends.. yeah they're there to cheer me up but no one will ever fully understand what i'm feeling.
Bad habits are starting to kick in, not eating right, being unhealthy.. omg.. it sucks. im so surprised i still have tears in me. its not even that im in pain its just hta tim so miserable. i wish i could disappear. when i try to stop crying, it doesnt work out that way..
I NEED A TIME OUT FROM LIFE.