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max came back into my life recently. i let him in when i was hurting in new york. i called, and called, and called. when i got back to orlando he came to stay with me.
last night was max's last open mic at the café. michael came for the first time in three months, and he looked amazing. it was a very emotional night, filled with old regulars saying goodbye. it was ian's last night here, and cliff is moving to daytona on monday.
today max went back to the west coast, monday he flies to new york for good. i am so sad. i can't believe i let him go these past three months, yet at the same time i'm glad that i did. he's finally become the person i've always wanted him to be--still himself, but stronger. more sure of what he wants. now it his chance to grow even more, and to do it alone in the big city. his acceptance to nyu came as a surprise after our break-up. it felt like a sign. i am glad that he is going, he is happy to be going, but somewhere deep down i want him to stay. being with him this past week has flipped me upside down. i never knew how much i missed him until i got him back. and now he's gone.
it's another goodbye i never wanted to give.
last night was max's last open mic at the café. michael came for the first time in three months, and he looked amazing. it was a very emotional night, filled with old regulars saying goodbye. it was ian's last night here, and cliff is moving to daytona on monday.
today max went back to the west coast, monday he flies to new york for good. i am so sad. i can't believe i let him go these past three months, yet at the same time i'm glad that i did. he's finally become the person i've always wanted him to be--still himself, but stronger. more sure of what he wants. now it his chance to grow even more, and to do it alone in the big city. his acceptance to nyu came as a surprise after our break-up. it felt like a sign. i am glad that he is going, he is happy to be going, but somewhere deep down i want him to stay. being with him this past week has flipped me upside down. i never knew how much i missed him until i got him back. and now he's gone.
it's another goodbye i never wanted to give.