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[__livingdead]

i need to stop lying to myself.
ive been fine up till now cos ive been lying.
its fine.
im fine.
i get these episodes, they only last for about 5 minutes than i shake them off.
but this one isnt shaking off.
i dont understand how you can just do that to someone.
i know your fine without me.
id like to think im fine without you.
i am fine without you.

its sinking in now..and i cant shake it this time.
im so sick of this.
i wanna be casual, like you.

im fine.
i am fine.

im just fine without you.
i am.
i dont miss you.
i know you dont miss me.
i dont miss you.
god i dont miss you.
i dont i dont.
i really dont.
im so fine.
how can you just not need me anymore?
i never think about you, i really dont.
i really dont.
i really dont.
i really fucking dont.
i dont

I AM FINE WITHOUT YOU.