To Much Time On My Hands..
Humm.. I recon I'll update, again. Shew, I really have to much time to myself..
Today, I was suppose to go up Ariel's.. That Failed..
Today, I was suppose to go to Walley World with Matt.. that Failed..
Today, I was suppose to go to Sasha's.. That failed..
((*I'm Just Gonna Be Whinning.. If You Care..Read & Comment..*))
I have to much time to think about everything..
It's rather depressing.. I really want to talk to AJ, I mean, I want me & him to work out, but I don't know where our relationship stands anymore.. I don't even know if he still likes me. Which, I think he does.. He told me he was sorry yesterday because he wasn't able to call, so i understand--*
And, there was this certain person that made me believe he had changed..well, i guess I'm not gonna fall for it.. not again. He called me & we was talkin and he was sayin something and then he asked me a question, I can't even remember what it was, but I just told him that I didn't care anymore--as long as he's happy.
-->Maybe, I was just your stepping stone for you to see what you want.. and what you don't want..and just to show you that I still care and I just want you to be happy--I'm walking away
Me & Sam had a conversation the other night & what I said & she said, has stuck in my head.
Me & her have decided that we give up..
I told her that I give up on him & She goes.. you should've a long time ago. How true is that?!* I wouldn't have been so heartbroken--and when me and him had this conversation today, he told me some stuff, that hurt...really bad. I even found a tear drop fall, I don't know what I still cry over him.. He's not worth it--so I give Up, I'm tired of trying. I should be happy with what I have..
Well, Humm, I would say look on the bright side, but really.. I don't have a bright side as of right now--* I have to much time to set here at the house and think and wonder and wish and dream.. I don't want to do this anymore..
I just wish everything could be okay again.. I mean I wish I wasn't always wanting to be happy..I know I'm usually in a good mood.. but that's kinda my cover up.. so yes, at times.. you could say I'm 'fake'.. But sometimes I just be myself and people don't like it, but hey, that's life--It's Okay..* But I guess I'll quit my whining about everything & just set here some more.. wait to talk to someone.. anyone.
I'll put some little quote thingys on here I just came across--
And there you are..holding her hand..and I'm lost..trying to understand...
*Never give up if u still wanna try*
*Never wipe your tears if u still wanna cry*
*Never settle for the answer if u still wanna know*
*Never say u don't like him if u can't let him go*
Now as my world is crumbling down,
I cant seem to look directly around.
A frown crosses your face,
when your love I can't replace.
The times we had I won't forget,
when I let you go, thats my one regret.
It's been so long and you've moved on, but my feelings for you aren't yet gone.
No matter what, you're my first love,
and god sent you down from up above.
*You can fall from the sky* *You can fall from a tree* *But the best way to fall* *Is in love with me*
If Your asking if I Need U the answer is 4Ever.. If Your askin if I'll Leave U the answer is Never..If Yur askin what I value the Answer is U.. if Yur askin if I love U the answer is I do*
How can you be friends with someone if everytime you look at them, it makes you want them even more?
Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever<3
*I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life, wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry I just can't help myself, I fell in love with you*
Sweet is love when all is sane
Sweet is death to rid the pain
Cruel is death when all is well
Cruel is love when all is hell
Someone cheer me up?*--That ain't all, but it'll do for now*--
Today, I was suppose to go up Ariel's.. That Failed..
Today, I was suppose to go to Walley World with Matt.. that Failed..
Today, I was suppose to go to Sasha's.. That failed..
((*I'm Just Gonna Be Whinning.. If You Care..Read & Comment..*))
I have to much time to think about everything..
It's rather depressing.. I really want to talk to AJ, I mean, I want me & him to work out, but I don't know where our relationship stands anymore.. I don't even know if he still likes me. Which, I think he does.. He told me he was sorry yesterday because he wasn't able to call, so i understand--*
And, there was this certain person that made me believe he had changed..well, i guess I'm not gonna fall for it.. not again. He called me & we was talkin and he was sayin something and then he asked me a question, I can't even remember what it was, but I just told him that I didn't care anymore--as long as he's happy.
-->Maybe, I was just your stepping stone for you to see what you want.. and what you don't want..and just to show you that I still care and I just want you to be happy--I'm walking away
Me & Sam had a conversation the other night & what I said & she said, has stuck in my head.
Me & her have decided that we give up..
I told her that I give up on him & She goes.. you should've a long time ago. How true is that?!* I wouldn't have been so heartbroken--and when me and him had this conversation today, he told me some stuff, that hurt...really bad. I even found a tear drop fall, I don't know what I still cry over him.. He's not worth it--so I give Up, I'm tired of trying. I should be happy with what I have..
Well, Humm, I would say look on the bright side, but really.. I don't have a bright side as of right now--* I have to much time to set here at the house and think and wonder and wish and dream.. I don't want to do this anymore..
I just wish everything could be okay again.. I mean I wish I wasn't always wanting to be happy..I know I'm usually in a good mood.. but that's kinda my cover up.. so yes, at times.. you could say I'm 'fake'.. But sometimes I just be myself and people don't like it, but hey, that's life--It's Okay..* But I guess I'll quit my whining about everything & just set here some more.. wait to talk to someone.. anyone.
I'll put some little quote thingys on here I just came across--
And there you are..holding her hand..and I'm lost..trying to understand...
*Never give up if u still wanna try*
*Never wipe your tears if u still wanna cry*
*Never settle for the answer if u still wanna know*
*Never say u don't like him if u can't let him go*
Now as my world is crumbling down,
I cant seem to look directly around.
A frown crosses your face,
when your love I can't replace.
The times we had I won't forget,
when I let you go, thats my one regret.
It's been so long and you've moved on, but my feelings for you aren't yet gone.
No matter what, you're my first love,
and god sent you down from up above.
*You can fall from the sky* *You can fall from a tree* *But the best way to fall* *Is in love with me*
If Your asking if I Need U the answer is 4Ever.. If Your askin if I'll Leave U the answer is Never..If Yur askin what I value the Answer is U.. if Yur askin if I love U the answer is I do*
How can you be friends with someone if everytime you look at them, it makes you want them even more?
Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever<3
*I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life, wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry I just can't help myself, I fell in love with you*
Sweet is love when all is sane
Sweet is death to rid the pain
Cruel is death when all is well
Cruel is love when all is hell
Someone cheer me up?*--That ain't all, but it'll do for now*--