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so um. i got my hair cut and i dyed it black. i would sing paint it black and change the words for you but that's so lame and i would never really do that... uh huh. vancouver was good but i don't feel like it really was as good as it could have been. everyone was a little edgey or maybe it was just me.. heh heh. and i don't know.. ugh. but really, going to a big time gaylord dance party with $3 drinks was so much fun!
i really wish i could find a hot lesbo best friend to keep me company in calgary because mine moved away and is lesboing around with hot trannies and gaylords in vancouver. i'm pretty lonely and i need to meet new people since everyone is moving to vancouver or fucking off soon and i'm going to be here until at least may. also, i'm just pretty sad and lonely.
and why do i have to feel so stoopid about everything i do? seriously i can never just be satisfied or at least even positive about what i said or did i always feel crappy about it and think what i said was horrible and people don't like me because of it. also, riel mentioned casually how she had to like convince kenny i'm cool shit or something and whatever, sometimes you have to i don't really care because yeah i'm not always cool shit and people need to be reminded or shown the light or something.. but it's really just that it brought up that "oh yeah people can possibly talk about me behind my back and i wonder what the hell they're saying...?" thing and way of thinking that i wasn't really expecting to come a knockin' soon and now i'm just holed up in bed getting over that whole staying up for 5 days and not worrying about anything.
funniest thing that happened on the trip though.. was joseph and i eating so much pot butter and being SO STONED oh my god i was so stoned and could not stop laughing and we listened to love inc. tape. heh. also when i put on a mix tape and joseph says "you really like sad girls don't you?"
i really wish i could find a hot lesbo best friend to keep me company in calgary because mine moved away and is lesboing around with hot trannies and gaylords in vancouver. i'm pretty lonely and i need to meet new people since everyone is moving to vancouver or fucking off soon and i'm going to be here until at least may. also, i'm just pretty sad and lonely.
and why do i have to feel so stoopid about everything i do? seriously i can never just be satisfied or at least even positive about what i said or did i always feel crappy about it and think what i said was horrible and people don't like me because of it. also, riel mentioned casually how she had to like convince kenny i'm cool shit or something and whatever, sometimes you have to i don't really care because yeah i'm not always cool shit and people need to be reminded or shown the light or something.. but it's really just that it brought up that "oh yeah people can possibly talk about me behind my back and i wonder what the hell they're saying...?" thing and way of thinking that i wasn't really expecting to come a knockin' soon and now i'm just holed up in bed getting over that whole staying up for 5 days and not worrying about anything.
funniest thing that happened on the trip though.. was joseph and i eating so much pot butter and being SO STONED oh my god i was so stoned and could not stop laughing and we listened to love inc. tape. heh. also when i put on a mix tape and joseph says "you really like sad girls don't you?"