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walking home tonight
something hit me;
i decided to lay in the grass on the side of my road,
just to lay there, and take it all in,
the night sky and the air, whatever it was
it all reminded me - took me back when my dad i
went out star gazing when i was younger
i remember how he kept pointing them out and i kept missing the shooting stars
he started to feel bad for me, i was just too cold that october night to concentrate
and you never concentrate in the first place the age i was.
he was like ' do you want to go inside, we can go inside'
and i said something like ' no i dont want to go in, i want to stay out here with you until i see one' and i did, and i meant it, and i felt so bad, because he felt bad for me,and i hated being the one to upset him, and i never saw him then, my mom never let me see him ever. it meant so much to me then, just as much as it does now. so i stuck it out, and we layed out on mark and dotties porch, and i was so happy, and i saw them all, hundreds of shooting stars, and i was so happy to be with him to see my first shooting star, i was so happy to be with him at all. ive spent my whole life missing him. and i will continue to more then ever. tonight i sat there laying on the edge of my road, and remembered all of this, everything i felt, everything we talked about, how happy i was. and i cried, i cried like a baby. one of the most beautiful moments of my life.
something hit me;
i decided to lay in the grass on the side of my road,
just to lay there, and take it all in,
the night sky and the air, whatever it was
it all reminded me - took me back when my dad i
went out star gazing when i was younger
i remember how he kept pointing them out and i kept missing the shooting stars
he started to feel bad for me, i was just too cold that october night to concentrate
and you never concentrate in the first place the age i was.
he was like ' do you want to go inside, we can go inside'
and i said something like ' no i dont want to go in, i want to stay out here with you until i see one' and i did, and i meant it, and i felt so bad, because he felt bad for me,and i hated being the one to upset him, and i never saw him then, my mom never let me see him ever. it meant so much to me then, just as much as it does now. so i stuck it out, and we layed out on mark and dotties porch, and i was so happy, and i saw them all, hundreds of shooting stars, and i was so happy to be with him to see my first shooting star, i was so happy to be with him at all. ive spent my whole life missing him. and i will continue to more then ever. tonight i sat there laying on the edge of my road, and remembered all of this, everything i felt, everything we talked about, how happy i was. and i cried, i cried like a baby. one of the most beautiful moments of my life.