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I dropped my history class, yay! I hated the teacher, he was such a negative, close-minded prick. Thinks he's a lot smarter than he actually is, as most pricks do. Anyway... it means I don't have to write a 8 to 10 k paper anymore, which takes away some stress. I feel like I can focus on my board exams now.
Life is never easy. I'm not sayin' this because I'm whiney, or because I want sympathy, although a lil' bit of sympathy wouldn't be turned down... :P But it seems that once I start to adjust and feel better about things, something else big pops up. I know - that's life. But I can't believe the bad luck I seem to be having.
My parents are likely getting a divorce. My father really wants to save the marriage, but my mother says she just isn't the same person she used to be, and this new person she has become does not love my dad the way she once did in years past. I feel very sad for my father. Very, very sad for my father. I don't have much else to say about the situation... it seems that talking about it would be a waste of breath. Mulling over it does nothing to improve morale. Sometimes, I feel so weighed down, it's impossible to smile.
At the same time, my life is getting better. I am taking positive steps to try and work my way out fo the current tragedy that is my life! (Yes, I am a little over-dramatic. It helps me deal) I'm trying to focus on the fact that I'm in school, have a job, and will be able to start my career as a massage therapist this next year. I have people who love me, even if I don't deserve them... and I'm hoping I'll one day be able to work out my little love triangle. It's hard when both boys, whom you've each told that you cannot be their girlfriend, tell you on a regular basis not to break their hearts. I don't want to hurt either - which means this situation is going to require time and a little bit of finesse on my part. But, hopefully, everything will be okay.
That's my big hope: Everything will be okay.
I feel like such a downer. I don't want to party the way I used to. I don't do much of anything the way I used to. Haven't been to the beach in about a month now. The only people I really see are my two boys.
But I guess it doesn't matter. I can work on my social life again when I'm happier about my personal life. As of now, the only things on my mind are my problems, and that's no good when you're tryin' to meet new people. Cause who wants to hear about all that crap, seriously?
Life is never easy. I'm not sayin' this because I'm whiney, or because I want sympathy, although a lil' bit of sympathy wouldn't be turned down... :P But it seems that once I start to adjust and feel better about things, something else big pops up. I know - that's life. But I can't believe the bad luck I seem to be having.
My parents are likely getting a divorce. My father really wants to save the marriage, but my mother says she just isn't the same person she used to be, and this new person she has become does not love my dad the way she once did in years past. I feel very sad for my father. Very, very sad for my father. I don't have much else to say about the situation... it seems that talking about it would be a waste of breath. Mulling over it does nothing to improve morale. Sometimes, I feel so weighed down, it's impossible to smile.
At the same time, my life is getting better. I am taking positive steps to try and work my way out fo the current tragedy that is my life! (Yes, I am a little over-dramatic. It helps me deal) I'm trying to focus on the fact that I'm in school, have a job, and will be able to start my career as a massage therapist this next year. I have people who love me, even if I don't deserve them... and I'm hoping I'll one day be able to work out my little love triangle. It's hard when both boys, whom you've each told that you cannot be their girlfriend, tell you on a regular basis not to break their hearts. I don't want to hurt either - which means this situation is going to require time and a little bit of finesse on my part. But, hopefully, everything will be okay.
That's my big hope: Everything will be okay.
I feel like such a downer. I don't want to party the way I used to. I don't do much of anything the way I used to. Haven't been to the beach in about a month now. The only people I really see are my two boys.
But I guess it doesn't matter. I can work on my social life again when I'm happier about my personal life. As of now, the only things on my mind are my problems, and that's no good when you're tryin' to meet new people. Cause who wants to hear about all that crap, seriously?