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today was.... boring. dad lost his job today ;[ theres a chance we might move to a bigger down like davenport or dubuque or w/e. id love to move. i hate a lot of people down here.. 'specially people at my school. i like people who go to lincoln.. the party school. lol i swear most of my friends go there.... yahh... seriously everybody here is retarded. like a lot of girls hate me because im a 'boyfriend stealer' when in reality ive never taken ANYONES boyfriend... i wouldn't do that to one of my frinds... but if ur my friend then act like a dumb bitch cuz ur boyfriend keeps GETTING ALL OVER ME but i tell him to back off... and i get shit for it.. its like duh. its like i cant be friends w/guys who have girlfriends because the girl will get jealous if i hangout w/them when i dont even mess around really.... and like i get called a big slut and shit when ive only had sex w/4 people. i have people who have had sex w/10 or more guys and they call me a slut. its like duh. honestly i dont know what these girls problems are. i have a problem where i hate to like get touched by people.. i can hangout with someone all the time and like never touch them.... i get jumpy ahha.. yah, k im a freak. naw... even when im around roger i would be all jumpy and shit when he'd touch me. so i dont understand how i can be a big slut when i dont even mess around w/hardly anyone... i mean yah i fucked nate twice now this week.. but me and nate have been fucking since LAST october.. thats almost a year now. so yah u can understand. ive been w/roger for OVER a month.. its our second time trying a relationship and we have barely done anything more than kiss.... i dont even hug people very much.. grrrr this is dumb. it pisses me off but yah
**///// anyways... i was with robyn and sheensa all day or w/e her name is. we didnt do like anything.. we went over to the apartment and chilled w/dustin n mike for a majority of the time... but yah. gay. this guy who was like 29 came over and was trying to hit on me and robyn. it was soooo funny lol hes gonna be 30 in a couple months.. kinda creepy. he kept telling us to come over to his apartment w/his friends and smoke weed and get drunk. it was crazy ;] lol
*/- tomorrow i get my check.. it better have atleast 200 on it. fosho. hm. i dont really have a whole lot to say. im really stuck on what to write roger back... i cant tell him i fucked nate... i cant. it'll be over definitely. and if he finds out it was nate............ omg i dont even want to know. their like best friends. i dont nkow what to do. the last time i told him i cheated on him w/nate like around christmas.. he had me come over and sat there for like 20-40 mins telling me how i was a slut and how he wanted nothing to do with me ever again... but HEY1 look at where we are now.. ent ;[ oh well... nates going to michigan for 4-5 days so ill be able to lay low.... *rOgy* might be gettin out in a week er so to go to school ;]]] i hope so.... i really do.
well i'm gonna go downsTUrs and watch final destination 2 and write rogers letter............
muahhhhhhh/\..\/../\..\/..kiley../\..\/../\..\/
**///// anyways... i was with robyn and sheensa all day or w/e her name is. we didnt do like anything.. we went over to the apartment and chilled w/dustin n mike for a majority of the time... but yah. gay. this guy who was like 29 came over and was trying to hit on me and robyn. it was soooo funny lol hes gonna be 30 in a couple months.. kinda creepy. he kept telling us to come over to his apartment w/his friends and smoke weed and get drunk. it was crazy ;] lol
*/- tomorrow i get my check.. it better have atleast 200 on it. fosho. hm. i dont really have a whole lot to say. im really stuck on what to write roger back... i cant tell him i fucked nate... i cant. it'll be over definitely. and if he finds out it was nate............ omg i dont even want to know. their like best friends. i dont nkow what to do. the last time i told him i cheated on him w/nate like around christmas.. he had me come over and sat there for like 20-40 mins telling me how i was a slut and how he wanted nothing to do with me ever again... but HEY1 look at where we are now.. ent ;[ oh well... nates going to michigan for 4-5 days so ill be able to lay low.... *rOgy* might be gettin out in a week er so to go to school ;]]] i hope so.... i really do.
well i'm gonna go downsTUrs and watch final destination 2 and write rogers letter............
muahhhhhhh/\..\/../\..\/..kiley../\..\/../\..\/