mixed emotions
why do i feel this way? is ther something wrong with me? it feels like my whole world is crashing down and no one is there to help me, ever. i just want one person to help, always be there, never turn back. is that so hard? it doesnt seem to be for other people. i look around and everyone is happy. so am i not? did i miss something? everything is so hard now. why cant it go abck to like it wa sbefore? why do people have to change, why do i have to change? it feels like im watching everything on a mvie, it just keeps going, the rewind just plays the same thing over again. there is no going back anymore, there never will be. ill have to learn to deal with, liek everyone else has. now things are going to change ever more. i dont know what i am going to do. nothing can ever be simple can it?
the funny thing is, this sint even about him.