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yesterday was one of the worst days ever!!!
i went to school all excitied and everything cause i would get to cheer w/ the varsity for the FIRST time!! i got to call the cheer(floor cheer) and it just made me feel special!!
well when i got to school o did the usual..said Hey to Adam, Christina, sarah and the reast and went to my locker since i was a lil late!! i had to take my poms and uniform to school caue we were gonna have out picture in the progrma! amy saw me on the way to my locker so she walked down there w/ me!
After i put my stuff in my locker and got my geometry book out i turned around and saw <3 Adam <3! thats when it hit me i began to see the spots..and they just wouldn't go away!! for tose of you who don't know what i'm talken about i was about to have a migrain! when i have migrains i begin to see spots in my left eye..then it gets to where i can't see at all...then the worst headache imaginable starts them the left side of my body goes numb..and this oes on for about 4 hours! but this migrain lasted for about 9-10 hours! and to top it off i had a stomach virus along /w it!! i wanted commit suicide! i really thought that i was gonna die, i wanted to die it hurt so bad...i just wanted to go to the hospital and tell them to kill me!!
Then i got to thinkin about the game and our stunt and all yjay stuff and i just wanted to cry!! here i was so happy that i'm finally gonna be a varsity and my fav season (baskeball) has started but i couldn't cheer cause i was sick!! the only thing that kept running through my mind was that i wanted it be over w/..i took this new medication that my niroligist(migrain Doc) gave me that should stop it in like and hour but it didn't work!! i was so scared that the cheerleaders were gonna be mad at me..i just hope that they're not..cause i tried to go to the game but mom made me stay in bed until my head stopped hurnt..and it still hurts a lil this morn! but i guess that's it for now! maybe update later!
Love you!!
i went to school all excitied and everything cause i would get to cheer w/ the varsity for the FIRST time!! i got to call the cheer(floor cheer) and it just made me feel special!!
well when i got to school o did the usual..said Hey to Adam, Christina, sarah and the reast and went to my locker since i was a lil late!! i had to take my poms and uniform to school caue we were gonna have out picture in the progrma! amy saw me on the way to my locker so she walked down there w/ me!
After i put my stuff in my locker and got my geometry book out i turned around and saw <3 Adam <3! thats when it hit me i began to see the spots..and they just wouldn't go away!! for tose of you who don't know what i'm talken about i was about to have a migrain! when i have migrains i begin to see spots in my left eye..then it gets to where i can't see at all...then the worst headache imaginable starts them the left side of my body goes numb..and this oes on for about 4 hours! but this migrain lasted for about 9-10 hours! and to top it off i had a stomach virus along /w it!! i wanted commit suicide! i really thought that i was gonna die, i wanted to die it hurt so bad...i just wanted to go to the hospital and tell them to kill me!!
Then i got to thinkin about the game and our stunt and all yjay stuff and i just wanted to cry!! here i was so happy that i'm finally gonna be a varsity and my fav season (baskeball) has started but i couldn't cheer cause i was sick!! the only thing that kept running through my mind was that i wanted it be over w/..i took this new medication that my niroligist(migrain Doc) gave me that should stop it in like and hour but it didn't work!! i was so scared that the cheerleaders were gonna be mad at me..i just hope that they're not..cause i tried to go to the game but mom made me stay in bed until my head stopped hurnt..and it still hurts a lil this morn! but i guess that's it for now! maybe update later!
Love you!!