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I really enjoyed tonight. It was a good reminder of why I am such good friends with Jen. Sometimes I think I lose sight of that fact. White Castle has disgusting cheeseburgers, regardless of what people say. They taste and smell like onions. And mine had little crunchy things in it. Eww. But they were only 60 cents, so it's okay.
I decided I am eliminating you from my life. You were my addiction for so long, but now I have to come clean. You build me up, yet tear me down so easily. You create the highest highs and the lowest lows. In case you haven't received the news, I've started doing this thing with my life called making myself happy. You don't fit into that scheme. I realized you're only an illusion of contentment. Goodbye, I truly wish this wasn't so hard.
We wait at the foot of the stairs, and we're leaving these cold walls behind, we're searching for what is right in our hearts, and I'm not going to give this up, I'm not going to let this go, we'll take the time and say goodbye, we'll fake like we're alright, we're holding onto these grudges that we've kept in our heads and in our hearts for so long, we'll keep this bitter pain, locked up inside our hearts, we'll let this bottle up in years to come, we'll take the time and say goodbye, we'll fake like we're alright, a broken heart has never felt this good before, I'll turn away after everything you'll never say to me, and we tried so hard, we tried so hard to make this work, but you know that it won't last, it won't last, this is what romance does to you, the silhouette of your new life casts a shadow over mine, everything in silence when you're with me, you know exactly who you are, don't worry you're not missing much, just the best years of my life, and you make it looks so easy to not even care, I've lost my faith, just try to make me feel at home.
// Thirty Miles North [ Crashing By Design ]