seconds go by so much faster when you're not listening to them

[__ithinkyourrad]

I don't even know how to describe tonight.
It was worse than terrible, and I don't even know why.
I don't know why I'm not happy with anything.
I don't know why he cares about me, at all.
I don't deserve anything.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I don't want to be awake any longer.
I don't want to sleep.
I do know that I need to get away.
I do know that I'm extremely overwhelmed.
I do know that I have really bad moodswings because of my medicine.
I do know that I care about him a lot.
I do know that I'm screwing my life up.
I do know that I don't know.

All I know is that I don't know