fin

[__intravenous]

this is not what i expected it to be at all

shes slowly dying inside. imagine finding that your whole world means nothing.

i need to whine i need to scream cut shout and die
i hate being this person and it's taken me only one week back here to become this
what i went through in Canada, well i hope no one has to go through.
im not going to spend my entire life trying to excuse or explain or reason to miniscule frontal lobes. this will be the last.
let me CLARIFY

im going to get a job. im going to finish my 12th grade year. im going to get my shit together, because i have let my stupidity and "friendships" fuck up too much. i will go to nova community college. and then i'll go to university. im going to actually use my brain, become a doctor, and all this stupid excrement will be behind me.
im not going to waste my time reparing trivial matters.
im not going to "fight my way" back into anyones life

everyones got their own shit going on. and im finally going to get my own life.
consider this my last livejournal "rant"

the drama queen, the life of the party, the coke head, the junkie, the different one. well consider her buried.

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