i'm with brian and things are okay. i'm trying not to talk to tom but it's not going very well, because i miss him. i want to get things straightened out and figure out what i'm doing but it's hard when i'm talking to both of them, so i told tom i can't talk anymore. we went one day and i texted him. :/ idk ( Read more... )

despite popular belief, i am alive. :)

happy faces:
- excellent thanksgiving with TWO dinners of deliciousness! :D
- strawberry shortcake ice cream from cold stone
- christmas shopping is almost done, though i'm certain i'll buy more cause i love buying presents for people
- brian loanedgave and told me i can't pay back $20 cause he knows i have ( Read more... )

and i know that you're a sucker
for anything acoustic
but when i say let's keep in touch
i hope you know i mean i wish that you'd grow up
this is the first song for your mixtape
and it's short just like your temper
somewhat golden like the afternoons
we used to spend before you got too cool
i think it's ironic, and kind of mean-spirited, that some ( Read more... )

well i held you like a lover ( Read more... )

hey there delilah ( Read more... )

after i have travelled so far ( Read more... )

you said you hate my suffering
and you understood
and you'd take care of me
you'd always be there
well, where are you now?so, kristen and i talked like we were supposed to. she wants to stay broken up, because she says it's too hard and she can't be happy unless i'm there ( Read more... )

i tried to tell you before i left
but i was screaming under my breath
you are the only thing that makes sense
just ignore all this present tense

we need to feel breathless with love
and not collapse under its weight
i'm gasping for the air to fill
my lungs with everything i've lost.everything just kind of hit me. i don't have a girlfriend anymore ( Read more... )

this morning, my mom, my dad, and i went to the nursing home to have christmas with my grandma. she was pretty good today (she has late progression alzheimer's) - she only repeated things a few times, and she said she was going to wear her new socks to work. but other than that, she was pretty with it, and we joked and laughed. it was nice ( Read more... )

and come december, she left
she mentioned something about it being for the best
i can't say i disagree
but it's killing me
and now i'm standing facing west
tracing my fingers around her silhouette
i haven't gotten used to it
but it's the best thing i got
when i'm covered in rain.so, kristen and i aren't dating anymore. i guess we're on a 'long ( Read more... )