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i'm not emo, but i just feel very crappy.
i woke up late and only had 15 minutes to get ready for math, and then i had gotten my period, which blooows. because even though i take my birth control, my cramps on the first day still hurt. so i popped two 500mg tablets of beautiful drugs and trotted off to class. i was like 7 minutes late, but whatever. i wore jeans and a tshirt and flipflops, because it was almost seventy. i learned a bunch of stuff that is confusing, and i sat near alex, even though he didn't look at me but we brushed shoulders. and then i went outside to go back to my car and it was raining and so my feet got all dirty and muddy and so did my pants. :{
so i went home crankily and washed my feet and my pants, snuggled max, and took a nap from 3-8. i woke up, watched ANTM (who are everyone's favorites? i'm curious) & AI (remember when sanjayaryjdklfj makes my ears bleed?!) and ate some foods, took a baf, and watched lost (which was crazy but predictable from previous spoilers, and locke messed something up again so it made it a true lost episode).
then i came on, and i was talking to my person and just.. blah. i really like them, and it depresses me that we can't date. which is really obvious, because why wouldn't you be? but it's difficult because i get sad about it and they want to know what's wrong, so i tell them and then it's just a big mess. i'm not trying to argue about it, i'm just talking about it, but it's so angsty. and they thought i was trying to argue and be mean i think, but i wasn't, i'm just so frustrated about it. so i just left and said i wouldn't talk about it anymore, which is a lie cause i prolly will. whatever. it makes me have an emokid face. and i'm not even properly expressing how i feel and argh.
ANYWAY. i am going to take some more drugs and go to sleepies, because i am still really tired after my nap.
oh hey a good thing is that i figured out my thesis for my psych paper, so now i can start researchinggg. and hopefully i can talk to googles, and maybe make a liberry date or somethin'.
i woke up late and only had 15 minutes to get ready for math, and then i had gotten my period, which blooows. because even though i take my birth control, my cramps on the first day still hurt. so i popped two 500mg tablets of beautiful drugs and trotted off to class. i was like 7 minutes late, but whatever. i wore jeans and a tshirt and flipflops, because it was almost seventy. i learned a bunch of stuff that is confusing, and i sat near alex, even though he didn't look at me but we brushed shoulders. and then i went outside to go back to my car and it was raining and so my feet got all dirty and muddy and so did my pants. :{
so i went home crankily and washed my feet and my pants, snuggled max, and took a nap from 3-8. i woke up, watched ANTM (who are everyone's favorites? i'm curious) & AI (remember when sanjayaryjdklfj makes my ears bleed?!) and ate some foods, took a baf, and watched lost (which was crazy but predictable from previous spoilers, and locke messed something up again so it made it a true lost episode).
then i came on, and i was talking to my person and just.. blah. i really like them, and it depresses me that we can't date. which is really obvious, because why wouldn't you be? but it's difficult because i get sad about it and they want to know what's wrong, so i tell them and then it's just a big mess. i'm not trying to argue about it, i'm just talking about it, but it's so angsty. and they thought i was trying to argue and be mean i think, but i wasn't, i'm just so frustrated about it. so i just left and said i wouldn't talk about it anymore, which is a lie cause i prolly will. whatever. it makes me have an emokid face. and i'm not even properly expressing how i feel and argh.
ANYWAY. i am going to take some more drugs and go to sleepies, because i am still really tired after my nap.
oh hey a good thing is that i figured out my thesis for my psych paper, so now i can start researchinggg. and hopefully i can talk to googles, and maybe make a liberry date or somethin'.