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i've been feeling inexplicably emo the past two days. i have a feeling of what it's about.. because the people-not-liking-me and defriending me thing is perpetually bothering me. i know i have all you guys, and i love you, i do, but it bothers me when people don't like me. because i think that something's wrong with me that you all just put up with and they won't, or i'm a bad person, or something. it hurts my feelings and i'm still upset about it and it's making me cranky.
i also feel a little bit like i have no one to talk to. because a lot of my friends, real life and internet, complain mostly about their things. which is fine usually, because i don't like to talk about my problems a lot, but when i want to.. i dunno, i just feel like i'm bothering people or they don't want to hear it. which is my problem, i know, but i hate having all this stuff bottled up inside of me.
also, i didn't put the googly plan into action, and today he left super fast, so i just emailed him on myspace. i didn't really wanna do that cause it's kind of crappy, without having talked to him in person yet, but whatever. i'm disappointed in myself for being so shy and self-conscious about it.
i have a math test tomorrow and i'm really worried about it because you know how bad i am at math, and my grades this semester are crucial. i hope it'll be somewhat easy though, since we only get 50 minutes to take it.
anyways. i'm glad it's almost the weekend so i can sleep my 12 hours at a time and watch the l word the rest of the time.
i also feel a little bit like i have no one to talk to. because a lot of my friends, real life and internet, complain mostly about their things. which is fine usually, because i don't like to talk about my problems a lot, but when i want to.. i dunno, i just feel like i'm bothering people or they don't want to hear it. which is my problem, i know, but i hate having all this stuff bottled up inside of me.
also, i didn't put the googly plan into action, and today he left super fast, so i just emailed him on myspace. i didn't really wanna do that cause it's kind of crappy, without having talked to him in person yet, but whatever. i'm disappointed in myself for being so shy and self-conscious about it.
i have a math test tomorrow and i'm really worried about it because you know how bad i am at math, and my grades this semester are crucial. i hope it'll be somewhat easy though, since we only get 50 minutes to take it.
anyways. i'm glad it's almost the weekend so i can sleep my 12 hours at a time and watch the l word the rest of the time.