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i went to BCC today, and there was like, nothing open. boo. so i'm re-taking intro to music. i took it last fall (2005) and had an A in the class, but ended up failing because i didn't go to three musical performances. so, whatever. it'll be easy because i still have my old notebook with my notes in it, and i don't have to buy a new textbook. the problem is that it's on tuesday, which means tuesdays are hell. i have class 9:30-10:45, 1-1:50, 3-4:15, and 5-7:50. that makes my heart sad. it's really not that bad though, because now on MWF, i only have class from 1-1:50 for the whole day, and thursday is only 9:30-10:45 and 1-1:50. plus my intro to music teacher is dr. kinney, the prof i had for music theory, and i really like him.
i haven't updated much about kristen, because things are at a standstill, sort of. we're kind of friends, when she IMs me to talk, and even then it's weird because we don't talk much. and it all seems very fake to me, because we're purposely avoiding certain topics and just talking about meaningless things. but the good thing is that i've stopped wallowing. i'm not completely over her yet, because that will take time, but i think i am as much as i can be. i'm not as angry about it as i used to be, and i don't spend all my days thinking about it and obsessing over it. which is good, because i need to heal.
the only thing that's bothering me is this thing with her and twinnie. i've talked to twinnie about it, but.. i don't know, i guess she doesn't understand why i'm so upset. but the two of them together frustrate me, because they're all super buddies. which, i mean, i don't mind if they're friends, but they're so close that it hurts me. because twinnie is my best friend, and kristen is my ex-girlfriend, and i need that to be separated a little right now. but they always talk, and they sign off at the same freaking time, and they post stupid inside jokes and conversations on their ljs, and it makes me feel bad. and annoyed. because even though i know twinnie loves me and is on 'my side,' she's still all really tied in with kristen. she was my best friend first, and i need her right now, away from kristen. i know that that probably sounds stupid and selfish, but it's the truth, and it really hurts me and makes me upset. i've tried to talk to twinnie about it, but i don't want to seem petty, and it's not like i'm going to ask her to not be friends with kristen, so i don't know what to do. bah.
everyone should probably read this (sunny, you'll LOVE it), a mark/addison story about babies, with spoilers for this past episode and next week's promo, and this, because pauler is amazing and she dedicated the second part of her ella fic to me cause she wuuuvs me. :D ♥ ♥
i am going to take a nap on my third-to-last day of freedom. SOB.
i haven't updated much about kristen, because things are at a standstill, sort of. we're kind of friends, when she IMs me to talk, and even then it's weird because we don't talk much. and it all seems very fake to me, because we're purposely avoiding certain topics and just talking about meaningless things. but the good thing is that i've stopped wallowing. i'm not completely over her yet, because that will take time, but i think i am as much as i can be. i'm not as angry about it as i used to be, and i don't spend all my days thinking about it and obsessing over it. which is good, because i need to heal.
the only thing that's bothering me is this thing with her and twinnie. i've talked to twinnie about it, but.. i don't know, i guess she doesn't understand why i'm so upset. but the two of them together frustrate me, because they're all super buddies. which, i mean, i don't mind if they're friends, but they're so close that it hurts me. because twinnie is my best friend, and kristen is my ex-girlfriend, and i need that to be separated a little right now. but they always talk, and they sign off at the same freaking time, and they post stupid inside jokes and conversations on their ljs, and it makes me feel bad. and annoyed. because even though i know twinnie loves me and is on 'my side,' she's still all really tied in with kristen. she was my best friend first, and i need her right now, away from kristen. i know that that probably sounds stupid and selfish, but it's the truth, and it really hurts me and makes me upset. i've tried to talk to twinnie about it, but i don't want to seem petty, and it's not like i'm going to ask her to not be friends with kristen, so i don't know what to do. bah.
everyone should probably read this (sunny, you'll LOVE it), a mark/addison story about babies, with spoilers for this past episode and next week's promo, and this, because pauler is amazing and she dedicated the second part of her ella fic to me cause she wuuuvs me. :D ♥ ♥
i am going to take a nap on my third-to-last day of freedom. SOB.