i dont know.
wow, how time has passed. i dont know if people even go on this anymore (ha, i feel like i said that in every past entries i wrote) but i just decided to post something after seeing something that really, really got to me.
i was looking through your entries and i remembered this one in particular. the one that you said you hoped we were gunna be bffs forever. i was reading it and i felt so sad, i kinda froze up. i dont even know what im trying to say really. i just dont know what happened the last time we talked. why did it go so sour? its been years and i know things have changed. it just really makes me upset that were complete strangers now. i have the worse memory and cant really make out everything we use to do or talk about but i remember how you changed me. you were always that positive person to be around and although sometimes i just wanted you to *man up* you taught me how to be sensitive and that i dont always have to hold everything inside. that i can loosen up and not shield my heart so much. i dont know if youll ever read this, but when you do i want you to know that im always reminded of you. its not just all of a sudden either, when you left for the second time to your new school i cried whenever you were brought up. you know its hard for me to cry. to show emotion is unheard of. i regret that we had such a short time towards the end of our friendship. flying back i felt like reality was telling me that were just different and it was just something inevitable, it was just the kinda people we were becoming. i know your doing good and your gunna be realll successful in whatver you do just cause i know that your allergic to failure haha. plus you got a good brain!
okay, i dont know if you hate me, resent me for something or whatever it is. i dont know if you'll even read this or not (gosh i said that a lot no?) but if you do, i miss you. i wish there was someone like you still here in cali.
i was looking through your entries and i remembered this one in particular. the one that you said you hoped we were gunna be bffs forever. i was reading it and i felt so sad, i kinda froze up. i dont even know what im trying to say really. i just dont know what happened the last time we talked. why did it go so sour? its been years and i know things have changed. it just really makes me upset that were complete strangers now. i have the worse memory and cant really make out everything we use to do or talk about but i remember how you changed me. you were always that positive person to be around and although sometimes i just wanted you to *man up* you taught me how to be sensitive and that i dont always have to hold everything inside. that i can loosen up and not shield my heart so much. i dont know if youll ever read this, but when you do i want you to know that im always reminded of you. its not just all of a sudden either, when you left for the second time to your new school i cried whenever you were brought up. you know its hard for me to cry. to show emotion is unheard of. i regret that we had such a short time towards the end of our friendship. flying back i felt like reality was telling me that were just different and it was just something inevitable, it was just the kinda people we were becoming. i know your doing good and your gunna be realll successful in whatver you do just cause i know that your allergic to failure haha. plus you got a good brain!
okay, i dont know if you hate me, resent me for something or whatever it is. i dont know if you'll even read this or not (gosh i said that a lot no?) but if you do, i miss you. i wish there was someone like you still here in cali.