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K so one night I went to a football game and I brought my best friend that goes to Cascade.
Earlier that day at the pep assembly I was with Tertia, Chayse, Michelle and Meghan and there was this really cute boy, and he was reallllllllllly quite and I figured he was just some retarded freshman boy who was probably not that nice.
So later that night I go to the football game and he is there hanging out with my friends. I kept wanting to call him Eric, but I wasn't sure so I asked him what his name was, and he told me it was Ryan, and asked me what my name was. So we just kinda all hung out, without really talking or anything, but then Tertia, Chayse and Michelle left early and kinda just left us there by ourselves. So Allison and I asked Ryan if he wanted to hang out with us because he looked kinda lonely and we ended up ditching the football game (we were losing terribly) and going to starbucks.
He offered to buy us drinks, but I couldnt let him do it so I ended up buying him a mocha haha, so we sat there for about and hour or maybe more just talking about all kinds of things. It was weird because Allison and I felt so comfortable talking to him, and I told him so much about me, I couldn't beleive it. So when he left, Allison and I talked about how absoluelty amazing he was, how he actually listened and asked questions and how ADORABLE he was. We made eachother a deal that I would ask Ryan to hang out on Friday and she would ask Beau. So Tuesday we were standing there, and I was about to chicken out, and all the sudden "DoyouwanttocomeoveronFriday?" slips out of my mouth, and he said YES. So that Friday he came over, and we talked about all kinds of things. He bought me Terriyaki and we went to the playground at the school. He made me feel so amazing, telling me how pretty I am and making me feel like he realllly wanted to be there.
So we went to Sausage Fest that night with Allison and we ended up going on the Ferris Wheel just me and him. It was so cute, perfect, amazing, I had only known him for a fucking week and already I was starting to like this boy. So then a couple days later he took me on a picnic at forest park, packed diet pepsi because he knew it was my favorite and told me how I make his day, everyday. A couple days later he came over and we went to the park and talked about how we liked eachother but didn't know if we should go out because we were getting so close and we didn't want to ruin our friendship. But later that day we were watching Corky Ramano and we started cuddling and I kissed him and after that there was no going back, we liked eachother wayyy too much to just be friends. So he told me that if we were gonna go out, it was gonna be for a long time, and we had to work through our problems. Our relationship went great. Being in his arms was the best place in the world. Usually when I started dating a guy I would get scared within a week or two and dump him, but with Ryan there was something there, I wanted to hang on, see it through. I had never met a guy who made me feel so beautiful, and special, and I truly felt extremely lucky to be with him. Our one month was coming up, and all the week before it, he was telling all my friends how much he liked me, and he was planning all these cute things for monday, our one month. (It was a big deal for me, considering I had never made it to a month)Then I didn't talk to him for a weekend and next thing I know, he's acting weird on monday and then he broke up with me. He said he didn't feel the same way as he did before, but I know that is bullshit, because when I look at him I can still see it. I know he still likes me and I don't know exactly what happened. I wish I knew because he is the most amazing boy I have ever met and for once I finally felt like I deserved it.
