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so i'm not even gonna lie and say i smell pretty bad right now. and i have no time to shower b.c. i have to go to volleyball in a little bit so thats cool. Just don't stand to close to me :D
so i love tower so far like the people i have met i love :: with them i feel as if i can be myself and just have fun and not give a shit what they think about me. I admit i probably will still be nervous but there is a lot more of the anxious in there now so that feels good. i have a feeling in some sorta crazy way, this is what i needed .. minus the tears.. but it feels to good to have like a fresh start with different people and learn about different things. so when a bunch of people from sc started hating me i guess its not such a bad thing .. at least i have other people i can hang out with and not worry about the other ones.. not like i ever did that much anyway. sorry guys but i dont care what you know now.
so yea i went out last night and the night before and what am i supposed to say same ol' same ol' .. getting kinda sick of it so im really glad i have other people i can hang out with b.c. i think last night kinda pushed me to the point of directing myself to tower people rather the other ones. i mean ill be your friend and all but if you do that drama shit to me again im not even gonna look back. and if you dont have any common respect im not even gonna talk to you .. im gonna ignore your calls your IMs b.c. if you have nothing nice to say than dont say anything at all and if you get to me like that.. oo bitch you better fuckin watch out b.c. i know so much about you that you would want to leave schools when im done. phew got that off my mind.
basketball is basketball i mean i suck and all but im used to sucking so im not really pissed at myself. right now im just tryin to have fun and bring some energy to these *new* people and show them what im all about. b.c. im 16 right now fun is the only thing that i need to worry about having and anyways things come when they are meant to be there so why rush the process while skippin the very ones you had to learn from to get to where you are.. i mean come on dont cheat your life -- how lame is that. I mean i do want a boyfriend and all but i do want to be able to just be myself.
i really dont know where that came from but i think im gonna go finish mowing the lawn because than i have to go to volleyball. oo and volleyball is going very well also, it feels good to be in the gym again just doing what i love to do. have fun that is.
i dont know why im rambling on and on about basically nothing .. so if you read this sorry for wasting time.
love always.
so i love tower so far like the people i have met i love :: with them i feel as if i can be myself and just have fun and not give a shit what they think about me. I admit i probably will still be nervous but there is a lot more of the anxious in there now so that feels good. i have a feeling in some sorta crazy way, this is what i needed .. minus the tears.. but it feels to good to have like a fresh start with different people and learn about different things. so when a bunch of people from sc started hating me i guess its not such a bad thing .. at least i have other people i can hang out with and not worry about the other ones.. not like i ever did that much anyway. sorry guys but i dont care what you know now.
so yea i went out last night and the night before and what am i supposed to say same ol' same ol' .. getting kinda sick of it so im really glad i have other people i can hang out with b.c. i think last night kinda pushed me to the point of directing myself to tower people rather the other ones. i mean ill be your friend and all but if you do that drama shit to me again im not even gonna look back. and if you dont have any common respect im not even gonna talk to you .. im gonna ignore your calls your IMs b.c. if you have nothing nice to say than dont say anything at all and if you get to me like that.. oo bitch you better fuckin watch out b.c. i know so much about you that you would want to leave schools when im done. phew got that off my mind.
basketball is basketball i mean i suck and all but im used to sucking so im not really pissed at myself. right now im just tryin to have fun and bring some energy to these *new* people and show them what im all about. b.c. im 16 right now fun is the only thing that i need to worry about having and anyways things come when they are meant to be there so why rush the process while skippin the very ones you had to learn from to get to where you are.. i mean come on dont cheat your life -- how lame is that. I mean i do want a boyfriend and all but i do want to be able to just be myself.
i really dont know where that came from but i think im gonna go finish mowing the lawn because than i have to go to volleyball. oo and volleyball is going very well also, it feels good to be in the gym again just doing what i love to do. have fun that is.
i dont know why im rambling on and on about basically nothing .. so if you read this sorry for wasting time.
love always.