God knows...actually nothing if there is one
I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
When it's good, then it's good
It's so good 'till it goes bad
'Till you try to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again!
Broken down in agony
Just trying to find a friend
Sometimes you just feel like having a good session of feeling completely shit and sorry for yourself.
I guess tonight is mine.
Sometimes i think that my life is split into seperate parts, for the most of the part im okay and can look forward without any troubles and then the second part is always dragging me down threatening to pull me somewhere i find hard to come out of.
Its hard, i want to be this positive person, someone who can look at everything and see the good in the situation.
The only good i can ever see is in someone and then it always turns out im wrong and become a complete doormat.
Ive always been a half empty glass kind of girl, its something i always wanted to change but never have.
Im probably just having one of those ohjustignoreher moments but i just wonder how my life will turn out.
EH lol my first entry in AGES and i sound just like my old self, at least i dont cut anymore, you can never leave that behind there are always slip ups they just happen less and less as you get older untill when something really bad happens the first thing you think about isnt a knife or somewhere to hide.
I have good friends..or do i? The thing is i have always felt like my friends are more for me than i am for them, basically i do all these things for them and i listen when they need me, im there when they want me and then i just feel like shouting i need some help too, i need something. I dunno i guess some situations in my life couldnt be solved with a simple chat :|
I wish i didnt have writers block, i love the poetry i used too write i just hate the place i was in when i wrote it.
gehhhhh
end of rant aha
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
When it's good, then it's good
It's so good 'till it goes bad
'Till you try to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again!
Broken down in agony
Just trying to find a friend
Sometimes you just feel like having a good session of feeling completely shit and sorry for yourself.
I guess tonight is mine.
Sometimes i think that my life is split into seperate parts, for the most of the part im okay and can look forward without any troubles and then the second part is always dragging me down threatening to pull me somewhere i find hard to come out of.
Its hard, i want to be this positive person, someone who can look at everything and see the good in the situation.
The only good i can ever see is in someone and then it always turns out im wrong and become a complete doormat.
Ive always been a half empty glass kind of girl, its something i always wanted to change but never have.
Im probably just having one of those ohjustignoreher moments but i just wonder how my life will turn out.
EH lol my first entry in AGES and i sound just like my old self, at least i dont cut anymore, you can never leave that behind there are always slip ups they just happen less and less as you get older untill when something really bad happens the first thing you think about isnt a knife or somewhere to hide.
I have good friends..or do i? The thing is i have always felt like my friends are more for me than i am for them, basically i do all these things for them and i listen when they need me, im there when they want me and then i just feel like shouting i need some help too, i need something. I dunno i guess some situations in my life couldnt be solved with a simple chat :|
I wish i didnt have writers block, i love the poetry i used too write i just hate the place i was in when i wrote it.
gehhhhh
end of rant aha