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I really dont feel like typeing it all again, because ive already bitched it out of me to Stephen. So i dont know wether or not this makes much sense. But all in all, it means, today has been horrible, and i am completely furious, upset, depressed, sad, forgiving and a pushover.
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:40:53 PM): im gonna fuckin kill someone
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:40:58 PM): i swear to fucking god
UnforseenCruelty (11:41:01 PM): ?
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:01 PM): i cant take his shit
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:05 PM): hes fucking yelling
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:13 PM): saying im an asshole
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:21 PM): and that i have an evil streak
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:24 PM): i dont listen to him
UnforseenCruelty (11:41:30 PM): wtf
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:39 PM): and he say "its from the fucking harry potter and satan music"
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:47 PM): I CANT FUCKING DEAL WITH HIM
UnforseenCruelty (11:41:49 PM): WHAT
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:04 PM): if i were a lil bit more of a fucked up individual i would kill him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:07 PM): ahhhhhhh
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:28 PM): i swear to fucking god, devil, which ever is right
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:43 PM): i do not know what is going to happen when he comes back in this house
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:46 PM): i HATE him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:52 PM): sorry
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:56 PM): i needed to rant
UnforseenCruelty (11:43:04 PM): its all good
UnforseenCruelty (11:43:10 PM): do what u must do
UnforseenCruelty (11:43:15 PM): thats why im here
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:57:43 PM): why the hell do i apologize
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:57:51 PM): what the fuck is wrong with me
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:57:59 PM): like really, ya i didnt listen to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:06 PM): but i have an extremly good reason
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:16 PM): what i did to not listen was not walk her
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:34 PM): i didnt walk her because he came in from doing it and told me he couldnt
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:44 PM): because there was a big big spider on the sidewalk
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:51 PM): i dont know how afriad he is
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:58 PM): but i know he doesnt know how afriad i am
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:04 PM): so since i couldnt walk her
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:16 PM): he cant forget the fact that i wouldnt listen
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:23 PM): now hes laying down in his bed
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:30 PM): after walking right past me as im talking to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:34 PM): and what the fuck do i do
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:44 PM): i stand at his door as he lays with his back to me
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:48 PM): i talk to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:55 PM): but its more like alkign to a wall
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:02 AM): because his response is silence
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:14 AM): which by far is worse than anything he could really say
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:19 AM): and at the end of that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:24 AM): what the fuck do i say
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:32 AM): im sorry for not listening
UnforseenCruelty (12:00:43 AM): i would say fine forget it
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:47 AM): but thats not why im REALLY sorry
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:01:24 AM): im sorry that he has to "deal" with me as his kid, with my devil music (im listening to coldplay right now) and my harry potter books which i dont read
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:01:29 AM): but MOST OF ALL
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:01:35 AM): im sorry that he is my father
UnforseenCruelty (12:03:44 AM): dude im telling you
UnforseenCruelty (12:03:53 AM): have your mom fight for custody
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:04:03 AM): i dont even want to get into that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:04:51 AM): u know why
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:04:56 AM): cause i would fear for him
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:04 AM): im afriad of what he would do
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:05 AM): to himself
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:14 AM): after all he puts me thru
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:18 AM): thats why i dont do that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:21 AM): and i could
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:28 AM): i could make it happen in a heart beat
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:31 AM): but i dont
UnforseenCruelty (12:06:06 AM): tell him that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:16 AM): i would never
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:27 AM): i cant say these things to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:29 AM): i cant
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:40 AM): i can barely tell him the things i just did
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:47 AM): i dont even get a response
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:58 AM): i just
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:03 AM): cant put up with his shit
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:11 AM): and everything else i go thru
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:18 AM): im in fucking tears right now
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:21 AM): and i dont know why
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:09 AM): and he says he giving away Kayla tomorrow
UnforseenCruelty (12:08:36 AM): y
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:41 AM): i dont know
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:47 AM): but he says he is
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:49 AM): dude
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:57 AM): i really cant take this
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:07 AM): that dog means so much to me
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:18 AM): plus everything else
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:24 AM): i cant do this
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:35 AM): physically and emotionally and mentally
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:38 AM): im not strong enough
UnforseenCruelty (12:10:21 AM): i wish i could help but i cant
UnforseenCruelty (12:10:39 AM): i tell you to do something and you give me atleast 3 reasons why u cant
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:10:49 AM): because
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:10:54 AM): there is nothing i can do
UnforseenCruelty (12:11:20 AM): well you better do something cause if you dont i will
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:11:25 AM): no
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:11:33 AM): your not going to do anything
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:11:40 AM): this doesnt involve you
UnforseenCruelty (12:11:56 AM): then dont tell me you cant deal with this shit
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:00 AM): i want to help you
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:02 AM): you know that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:07 AM): i know
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:15 AM): but if you wont help yourself then what the hell am i supposed to do
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:22 AM): sit here and watch my friend suffer
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:22 AM): nothing
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:26 AM): like i said
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:32 AM): i just needed to rant
If you can somehow understand what happend, then your good. If not, dont bother, you prolly dont give a shit anyway.
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:40:53 PM): im gonna fuckin kill someone
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:40:58 PM): i swear to fucking god
UnforseenCruelty (11:41:01 PM): ?
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:01 PM): i cant take his shit
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:05 PM): hes fucking yelling
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:13 PM): saying im an asshole
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:21 PM): and that i have an evil streak
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:24 PM): i dont listen to him
UnforseenCruelty (11:41:30 PM): wtf
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:39 PM): and he say "its from the fucking harry potter and satan music"
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:41:47 PM): I CANT FUCKING DEAL WITH HIM
UnforseenCruelty (11:41:49 PM): WHAT
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:04 PM): if i were a lil bit more of a fucked up individual i would kill him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:07 PM): ahhhhhhh
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:28 PM): i swear to fucking god, devil, which ever is right
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:43 PM): i do not know what is going to happen when he comes back in this house
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:46 PM): i HATE him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:52 PM): sorry
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:42:56 PM): i needed to rant
UnforseenCruelty (11:43:04 PM): its all good
UnforseenCruelty (11:43:10 PM): do what u must do
UnforseenCruelty (11:43:15 PM): thats why im here
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:57:43 PM): why the hell do i apologize
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:57:51 PM): what the fuck is wrong with me
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:57:59 PM): like really, ya i didnt listen to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:06 PM): but i have an extremly good reason
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:16 PM): what i did to not listen was not walk her
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:34 PM): i didnt walk her because he came in from doing it and told me he couldnt
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:44 PM): because there was a big big spider on the sidewalk
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:51 PM): i dont know how afriad he is
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:58:58 PM): but i know he doesnt know how afriad i am
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:04 PM): so since i couldnt walk her
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:16 PM): he cant forget the fact that i wouldnt listen
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:23 PM): now hes laying down in his bed
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:30 PM): after walking right past me as im talking to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:34 PM): and what the fuck do i do
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:44 PM): i stand at his door as he lays with his back to me
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:48 PM): i talk to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (11:59:55 PM): but its more like alkign to a wall
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:02 AM): because his response is silence
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:14 AM): which by far is worse than anything he could really say
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:19 AM): and at the end of that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:24 AM): what the fuck do i say
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:32 AM): im sorry for not listening
UnforseenCruelty (12:00:43 AM): i would say fine forget it
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:00:47 AM): but thats not why im REALLY sorry
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:01:24 AM): im sorry that he has to "deal" with me as his kid, with my devil music (im listening to coldplay right now) and my harry potter books which i dont read
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:01:29 AM): but MOST OF ALL
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:01:35 AM): im sorry that he is my father
UnforseenCruelty (12:03:44 AM): dude im telling you
UnforseenCruelty (12:03:53 AM): have your mom fight for custody
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:04:03 AM): i dont even want to get into that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:04:51 AM): u know why
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:04:56 AM): cause i would fear for him
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:04 AM): im afriad of what he would do
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:05 AM): to himself
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:14 AM): after all he puts me thru
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:18 AM): thats why i dont do that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:21 AM): and i could
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:28 AM): i could make it happen in a heart beat
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:05:31 AM): but i dont
UnforseenCruelty (12:06:06 AM): tell him that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:16 AM): i would never
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:27 AM): i cant say these things to him
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:29 AM): i cant
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:40 AM): i can barely tell him the things i just did
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:47 AM): i dont even get a response
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:06:58 AM): i just
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:03 AM): cant put up with his shit
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:11 AM): and everything else i go thru
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:18 AM): im in fucking tears right now
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:07:21 AM): and i dont know why
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:09 AM): and he says he giving away Kayla tomorrow
UnforseenCruelty (12:08:36 AM): y
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:41 AM): i dont know
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:47 AM): but he says he is
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:49 AM): dude
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:08:57 AM): i really cant take this
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:07 AM): that dog means so much to me
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:18 AM): plus everything else
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:24 AM): i cant do this
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:35 AM): physically and emotionally and mentally
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:09:38 AM): im not strong enough
UnforseenCruelty (12:10:21 AM): i wish i could help but i cant
UnforseenCruelty (12:10:39 AM): i tell you to do something and you give me atleast 3 reasons why u cant
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:10:49 AM): because
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:10:54 AM): there is nothing i can do
UnforseenCruelty (12:11:20 AM): well you better do something cause if you dont i will
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:11:25 AM): no
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:11:33 AM): your not going to do anything
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:11:40 AM): this doesnt involve you
UnforseenCruelty (12:11:56 AM): then dont tell me you cant deal with this shit
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:00 AM): i want to help you
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:02 AM): you know that
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:07 AM): i know
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:15 AM): but if you wont help yourself then what the hell am i supposed to do
UnforseenCruelty (12:12:22 AM): sit here and watch my friend suffer
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:22 AM): nothing
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:26 AM): like i said
Killyou2L0VEyou (12:12:32 AM): i just needed to rant
If you can somehow understand what happend, then your good. If not, dont bother, you prolly dont give a shit anyway.