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well, i just came back from journey.Today's meetign was really interesting.idk.i feel like writing about it.Almost everyone cried.It was about depression and how it effects us, sighns and how we can go about treating it. Soem people in journey really have gone through alot.It was ridiculous.They made a powerpoint thingy magig.It had clips of the movie thirteen and gang movies mixed up with clips form the passion of the christ.It really made me think.Like you have a girl cutting herself,and then jesus getting a nail in his hand, and a guy getting beaten by a gang, and jesus gettign wipped.Really touching stuff.Duarte was sayign how all of us carry a cross on our backs.How eveyrthign we are,feel,do,think goes into one big cross that we carry around with us.You know, everything that we carry on our shoulders.&& he was saying how jesus fell three times and got someone to help him [ simon ], which shows that we don't have to go througha nything alone, and if we fall because our crosses are to heavy it's okay to accept help.idk.probobly i'm rambling on and on and making myself seem like some kind of church maniac.But it just really got me thinking.Because so much has happened in the last few years,all of this makes sence. How the point of falling is getting up again.When you're going through something, it always seems like it's the worst thing that could pssibly happen, or it's the end of the world.But after a few days it doesnt seem like that much of a big deal.You fall and you get up.&& you're neevr alone.ever.You have to trust that eveyrthign will be okay.I was doubting my faith and still do alot.But today it made sense to me.It fit.D was telling us about how he had to give up somethign he cared about so that his cross would be lighter for him to carry, so he coudl drop what's makign it heavy and add it back on.&& how he wa sin depression and felt bad and stuff.He was telling us how he felt like shit he went to mass for the hell of it, and when he came out he felt good.Like he was were he was sopposed to me.&& i noticed that i do the same.Sounding corny yet?Some weeks, especially a few weeks back, the days seemed really long and almost unbearable.I didn't feel like going out, speakignt o anyone,eating,school work, nothing.at all.&& i have alot of weeks like that.When eveyrthign seems to go wrong,and i'm not where i'm sopposed to be.It's like i'm not standing on the ground, but more like floating.&& at the end of the week, i go to pratcice and mass and journey and i feel okay.Just beign in church and around some people makes it easier.Makes my cross lighter.

idk.=/ seemed touching to me.dn;t think i'm corny...or tihnk im corny.either way is fine.