If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life. ~ Oscar Wilde ~
Shane and I went skating and I have no idea but I had this crazy confidence, i was doing everything when I wanted and how I wanted. It was nice because I know ive been limiting myself from alot, and I guess this is now the time I am stepping up. I am gonna make a vid and try to get on a team i think. Its nice cause no matter what I always have skateboarding, I always have the night to waltz in, I always have dorkiness.. le sigh.
I went into cowtown today and got new shoes and new trucks. It was really strange, i saw all the kids there I knew from 7th grade, daniel has a beard now its so gnarley, hes still all dirty and stuff, dried up snot hanging out of his nose. I bet hes so good at skating now. I think im gonna give those guys a call someday soon, or maybe even the coopster.. god thatd be nice. Its been so long since ive had a group i hang with.. well nevermind theres always been nathan elric dustin and those guys.. ergh but they are so boring and not fun. I liked doing immature things to people while they slept, and egging people on the weekeds and being able to laugh about that stuff later. I also saw janelle there.. it weirded me out cause she said i was hot. janelle is an old ex.. my first so called love. I never know what to say when girls tell me im hot, i usually just say whatever cause girls never tell me that haha.. dont really know how to react. I guess I dont take that well to random objectification.. although i do think its nice that people see that shallow beauty in me. id just rather them seeing me beautiful in reference to my depth and meaning.. other people see it.. i guess its good being at a medium.
also ended up giving mysister krystle a lesson on how to use her objective mind.. shes always thinking about what needs to get done and what priorities she has. Tells me I need to get mine straight, i told her i do have mine straight, i know what I want out of life and im already going for it, life is fine for me. She said but you dont have a job and you arent in school?! didnt really know what to say at her other than just laugh.
I miss her.
me: "oh man that is boat"
shane: "such as life"
me: "D-towns"
I hate having dreams about people you used to like.
He who has never hoped can never despair.
~ George Bernard Shaw ~
I went into cowtown today and got new shoes and new trucks. It was really strange, i saw all the kids there I knew from 7th grade, daniel has a beard now its so gnarley, hes still all dirty and stuff, dried up snot hanging out of his nose. I bet hes so good at skating now. I think im gonna give those guys a call someday soon, or maybe even the coopster.. god thatd be nice. Its been so long since ive had a group i hang with.. well nevermind theres always been nathan elric dustin and those guys.. ergh but they are so boring and not fun. I liked doing immature things to people while they slept, and egging people on the weekeds and being able to laugh about that stuff later. I also saw janelle there.. it weirded me out cause she said i was hot. janelle is an old ex.. my first so called love. I never know what to say when girls tell me im hot, i usually just say whatever cause girls never tell me that haha.. dont really know how to react. I guess I dont take that well to random objectification.. although i do think its nice that people see that shallow beauty in me. id just rather them seeing me beautiful in reference to my depth and meaning.. other people see it.. i guess its good being at a medium.
also ended up giving mysister krystle a lesson on how to use her objective mind.. shes always thinking about what needs to get done and what priorities she has. Tells me I need to get mine straight, i told her i do have mine straight, i know what I want out of life and im already going for it, life is fine for me. She said but you dont have a job and you arent in school?! didnt really know what to say at her other than just laugh.
I miss her.
me: "oh man that is boat"
shane: "such as life"
me: "D-towns"
I hate having dreams about people you used to like.
He who has never hoped can never despair.
~ George Bernard Shaw ~