important-please read.
I have a tremendous amount of things to deal with in my life at the moment. I am not sure how to handle most of the challenges that my life has presented. Yes, I am a lucky person. I am grateful that I have had it good thus far. However, I have hit one of the biggest bumps in the road, yet. I am full of frustration and I wish I knew how to handle things with more maturity and grace, but I suppose that is what life is for- to provide you with experience- to learn how to deal with things as you go along. Life experience.
Because of my current situation, I am taking a break from this thing. I know for most, it would be easy to disregard anonymous commeenters, but I can't. It sickens me that I have taken some of these things straight to heart, and I cannot, and will not deal with that anymore. I could block anonymous comments, but for some reason I've never wanted to. I guess It always gives me the reality check I need. I know not everyone will like me. Fuck, I dont want everyone to like me. I dislike most of the people I know, for christs sake.
My life is full right now.
Trying to save money & hardly being able to work because of school will be tough.
School from 9-5 mon-fri. I'm genuinely excited for that.
I am nervous, and most definitely scared to death about what the future holds for me, but now is my time to actually accomplish something. My time of being flaky is over. I will finish what I start. I be true to everyone in my life, and work on relationships. I've always said that I don't like people that aren't "real". Well, whats real? Maybe I need to be real with myself.
I don't ever want to have to defend myself for my words.
I don't want to feel like I have something to prove.
I don't want to feel that I have to validate my actions.
So, say what you will. Apparently my journal isn't the place for me to express my feelings, but instead, its a forum where the way I handle my life is up for discussion.
I will still log in to check up on you all. I enjoy reading about your lives. Please keep in contact. Be well.
See you all when I see you.
Because of my current situation, I am taking a break from this thing. I know for most, it would be easy to disregard anonymous commeenters, but I can't. It sickens me that I have taken some of these things straight to heart, and I cannot, and will not deal with that anymore. I could block anonymous comments, but for some reason I've never wanted to. I guess It always gives me the reality check I need. I know not everyone will like me. Fuck, I dont want everyone to like me. I dislike most of the people I know, for christs sake.
My life is full right now.
Trying to save money & hardly being able to work because of school will be tough.
School from 9-5 mon-fri. I'm genuinely excited for that.
I am nervous, and most definitely scared to death about what the future holds for me, but now is my time to actually accomplish something. My time of being flaky is over. I will finish what I start. I be true to everyone in my life, and work on relationships. I've always said that I don't like people that aren't "real". Well, whats real? Maybe I need to be real with myself.
I don't ever want to have to defend myself for my words.
I don't want to feel like I have something to prove.
I don't want to feel that I have to validate my actions.
So, say what you will. Apparently my journal isn't the place for me to express my feelings, but instead, its a forum where the way I handle my life is up for discussion.
I will still log in to check up on you all. I enjoy reading about your lives. Please keep in contact. Be well.
See you all when I see you.