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Even though I probably shouldn't have felt this way, when I broke things off with him it felt like the worst mistake I've ever made. Just because I couldn't get it together enough to give all of myself to someone. I want that. I need that. I want to be able to give myself, & all of myself to someone. Every so often, I have these mental breakdowns. Where I think about every possible thing I could have done, or said- but didn't. Sometimes that really kills me. It kills me to know that this is my classic pattern. With everything in my life. It makes me so goddamn angry that I don't know what I want in life right now.
I did meet someone.
I'm hoping for something.
But then again I'm always hoping for something.
I just don't want to have regrets anymore.
I'm not going back to school next semester.
I feel like I've lost control of my life.
People come and go so easily.
Its leaving me nervous and in a constant panic.
Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
oh take me back to the start
I did meet someone.
I'm hoping for something.
But then again I'm always hoping for something.
I just don't want to have regrets anymore.
I'm not going back to school next semester.
I feel like I've lost control of my life.
People come and go so easily.
Its leaving me nervous and in a constant panic.
Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
oh take me back to the start