What am I talking about? I don't know either.
As much as things have changed from last summer, somehow they've managed to stay the same.
I get myself in the same situations, time after time. I'm freaking myself out this time. It makes me nervous, as much as I want it. I'm so afraid to get close to people, I'm even weirding myself out.
I love my friends. I like where my life is at right now (besides the obvious fact of unemployment.) However, I'm feeling kind of down about a lot of shit lately. It's like, the world keeps going, and I'm left behind. I don't really know what kind of friend/person I'm "supposed to be". Sometimes people make me feel like shit, and then it makes me feel like I should be a certain way. I don't even really know what I'm trying to say either. Sometimes I just wish things would stay the same. I feel like I'm always second best.
Some people are so good at betraying people, or leading people on, its hard to try and figure out who you can trust.
I've made mistakes. One, in particular, I wasted a good amount of time on, and just recently realized that I was the fool in that situation. Thats always what it leads back to.
I just keep thinking back to last summer, and how much I don't want things to turn out like that.
I know that people are different, & I'm older and wiser.
I get myself in the same situations, time after time. I'm freaking myself out this time. It makes me nervous, as much as I want it. I'm so afraid to get close to people, I'm even weirding myself out.
I love my friends. I like where my life is at right now (besides the obvious fact of unemployment.) However, I'm feeling kind of down about a lot of shit lately. It's like, the world keeps going, and I'm left behind. I don't really know what kind of friend/person I'm "supposed to be". Sometimes people make me feel like shit, and then it makes me feel like I should be a certain way. I don't even really know what I'm trying to say either. Sometimes I just wish things would stay the same. I feel like I'm always second best.
Some people are so good at betraying people, or leading people on, its hard to try and figure out who you can trust.
I've made mistakes. One, in particular, I wasted a good amount of time on, and just recently realized that I was the fool in that situation. Thats always what it leads back to.
I just keep thinking back to last summer, and how much I don't want things to turn out like that.
I know that people are different, & I'm older and wiser.