i die to serve.

[__heartlikeart]

physically exhausted. somewhat over my spurt of insomnia, but not really. i end up falling asleep early and waking up every night between 2 and 3 only to be totally awake again. i sleep diagonally with my head and two pillows at the foot of the bed, leaving the other two pillows where they belong, as if this practice might make me feel a little less lonely. i can't tell you that it works really well, but i like to think it does. maybe i need more pillows. i definately need more of something. well, not need necessarily, just want. obviously i can push through every day with just my basic physical needs but it's the wants that weigh me down just a little. like i want someone to lay around in bed with me and watch a bunch of thought provoking movies, or just comedies. i want someone to wrestle around with me. or just hug me. and i'm glad i do not need these things, because i would be in a sore spot right now. im just in a mood.

annnnnnnnnnnnd end energy to even type.