Jun 26, 2005 20:35
i've moved on to the next step. I'm soo mad at him now. I'm going to write what i would say to him.
I would say..
"I'm soo fucking mad at you for being fine with this. For giving up so fucking quickly. I'm mad that you can wake up every morning knowing that i didn't even sleep through the night. I am mad that you let me hurt so much even though seeing me in pain was not going to make you better. I'm mad that you don't pick up the phone at least 3 times a day and dial the 1st 6 digits of my number then get scared and hang up because i do. I'm pissed that you aren't there for me anymore, that i can't call you crying. I am mad that you, out of all fucking people made me hurt more then ever. And more then ever I'm fucking pissed that you cause me an unbarriable pain and seem damn fucking proud of it. and i'm also mad that you made almost all my friends think your an asshole when your not, i'm mad that you made that label for yourself and that i stick up for you even though no one in the world has hurt me more. I'm mad that you won't yell at me. FUCKING YELL AT ME!!!!! It won't hurt me trust me!!! I'm soo fucking pissed in case you didn't catch that."