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i am really happy.
i am so ready to leave high school. i had a lot of fun but i am just ready to move forward.
i have matured so much. and i regret that the people i used to be friends with, those people whose friendship has dwindled or i ruined, don't have the chance to know who i am now. i think i am a much better person.
i think you'd like me now, again, given the chance.
but life isn't necessarily about second or even third chances. and it is idealistic to think otherwise. because there are lots of times when truly it's now or never, and we have to learn to take those chances when they come to us, not pray afterward that it will happen again, that we'll get another chance.
i don't know why i'm thinking about that. i guess it's because i actually do have regrets about high school. and you know what, i don't think that is a bad thing, even though everyone likes to say, "i don't regret anything, because i've learned from everything and it made me stronger."
i personally don't agree, because i know i would rather have just used my common sense and not made a lot of the mistakes that i did in the first place. and i say this because we have all done things with full knowledge that it wasn't a good choice; we just didn't care at the time.
so what did i learn from those instances? nothing really. i already knew i shouldn't have done the things i did and i already knew that i don't think over things enough.
and i lost a lot of friends that way, while gaining nothing. those are the times i regret.
but i want to focus on the present and future from now on, and right now i like how things are. i like being excited for prom and graduation and the summer and college.
i am so ready to leave high school. i had a lot of fun but i am just ready to move forward.
i have matured so much. and i regret that the people i used to be friends with, those people whose friendship has dwindled or i ruined, don't have the chance to know who i am now. i think i am a much better person.
i think you'd like me now, again, given the chance.
but life isn't necessarily about second or even third chances. and it is idealistic to think otherwise. because there are lots of times when truly it's now or never, and we have to learn to take those chances when they come to us, not pray afterward that it will happen again, that we'll get another chance.
i don't know why i'm thinking about that. i guess it's because i actually do have regrets about high school. and you know what, i don't think that is a bad thing, even though everyone likes to say, "i don't regret anything, because i've learned from everything and it made me stronger."
i personally don't agree, because i know i would rather have just used my common sense and not made a lot of the mistakes that i did in the first place. and i say this because we have all done things with full knowledge that it wasn't a good choice; we just didn't care at the time.
so what did i learn from those instances? nothing really. i already knew i shouldn't have done the things i did and i already knew that i don't think over things enough.
and i lost a lot of friends that way, while gaining nothing. those are the times i regret.
but i want to focus on the present and future from now on, and right now i like how things are. i like being excited for prom and graduation and the summer and college.