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[__haleymichelle]

Last night I thought about a lot when I layed in bed, like everything a person could posibly think of. Mainly about how I hate the person I am, and what I have come out to be in the end of my three year relationship. I hate it. I know im a good person, but the way i treat my family and the way I treat Clark, expecting that he will cheat on me any second, waiting for that one person to be like "Haley i need to talk to you abot something", I alway hated those words. I can't wait to go on vacation this summer and not have to worry about coming back and hearing all those stories.I treat him like dirt beacause I have this wall I put up beacause of the men in my life who have hurt me. But hes diffrent, he really truley cares, and is just as scared as I am. He makes me smile nonstop when im around him, constantly always being "me" but in a guys body, he would never ever even think of calling me any names.He thinks highley of me,and would never think about disrespecting me. Im worth something to him, im not old news.I feel secure around him and hes helped me move on from a lot of things also.He cares, I know im goin on about nothing but he reads this.:)Ya, I just wanted to get that out, im happier now. Im not crying every other day. Im just happy but i sure don't act like it and im sorry..This is my lj so I thought I would write about how im feeling.I have had a pretty layed back summer, hope everyone has had a good one too!

Goin to hawaii this summer w/ heather n' Troy!Im so excited.