Fat Food Finally Forsworn
Ok so I'm the fattest I've ever been and it's so scary I could almost jump out of a window, but not quite.
Tonight walking home I saw an anorexic girl walk into a bodega so I followed her (as I am wont to do) and watched the process of choosing foods to binge on.. the furtive glances at the chocolate bars, the nail-biting, the forward tilt of the head to hide behind a wall of hair. And as I watched her and felt my own ED screaming in my head I thought, "It's not the weight-loss I miss, it's the obsession!" I miss the comfort of that all-consuming addiction.
But, even before I saw this girl (and after I saw my arms in a change-room mirror), I realised I have to do something. I cannot continue to eat in this completely reckless, American way. And that's when I found this. Wowsers. All I need is something to latch onto to motivate me, and this little page is it. I love it and, starting tomorrow, I'm going to fill my body with HEALTH.
We'll see how it goes.
Tonight walking home I saw an anorexic girl walk into a bodega so I followed her (as I am wont to do) and watched the process of choosing foods to binge on.. the furtive glances at the chocolate bars, the nail-biting, the forward tilt of the head to hide behind a wall of hair. And as I watched her and felt my own ED screaming in my head I thought, "It's not the weight-loss I miss, it's the obsession!" I miss the comfort of that all-consuming addiction.
But, even before I saw this girl (and after I saw my arms in a change-room mirror), I realised I have to do something. I cannot continue to eat in this completely reckless, American way. And that's when I found this. Wowsers. All I need is something to latch onto to motivate me, and this little page is it. I love it and, starting tomorrow, I'm going to fill my body with HEALTH.
We'll see how it goes.