well here we go...
welp. i rarely update this thing... i figured i would since i can't sleep. i've only gotten about 3 hours of sleep all weekend but i still can't sleep : /
nothing is really going on... i'm getting my car within a week. ::i hope:: i think we are mainly leaning towards the saturn ion in white? who knows. i don't even care i just NEED a fucking car. and i need to find a new job. mine is way too boring for me to handle. it's so repetitive and easy... it's quite annoying. i mean yeah i make pretty good money... but i rather be constantly doing something. and i actually kind of what to get back into retail. but who knows. i hate office jobs becuz all i do is sit all day. but i will stick with it until i find something else becuz if i don't have a job.. that means no car.
and umm. CIRCUT kicked ass friday night at the myspace cafe. i was so fucking proud of them. too bad more ppl didn't stick around. seriously. they were headlining for a reason. dumbfucks.
lately i have been happier with things... i have been getting closer to some ppl which makes me happy. i like feeling like i belong somewhere. as of yesterday morning.. me and rich are offically back together <3 and it makes me happyy and i really hope he is happy too. we are getting along so good now. i like yesterday was the first day in awhile that we didn't fight... we didn't even bicker one bit. : ) he told me that he really does love me and that he promises me i can trust him. but we will see... the trust needs to be gained back a little still.. but it is getting there. i really don't think he would be stupid enough to fuck this up again right? he confessed some thing to me... i won't say what. but it was a pretty big deal i guess you could say. and it kinda proved me right all along. but i really think that both of us are ready for this. i just hope i don't get disappointed becuz i haven't been this content in a long time. and me and him decided to keep the same date as it was before.. becuz really in the past.. about year and half we have only gone as long as 2 days without seeing each other. we had something all along and all the time and everything we went through.. good or bad is making me and him stronger now. actually.. tomorrow with be 17 months : )i just hope he is as happy about this as i am.
there's really nothing in my life i can complain about. the only thing at the moment really is that i can't sleep at all. and my back/arm hurts really bad. blah. and i wish he was here. but it's ok... i'm hoping i get to see him sometime later today at least.
and btw, back off. he's mine. and no this isn't going out to any certain person. i am just saying... please respect the fact that me and him have been through a lot together and it's obvious that me and him want this to work or we wouldn't be boyfriend and girlfriend right now. i don't want to be overprotective or anything. all i ask is for some respect. respect for the fact that he IS my boyfriend and that he is with me for a reason. and he has been with me for the past 17 months for a reason. we love each other and i am so sick of things/ppl coming between us. so to whoever reads this. maybe it won't even apply to anyone who reads this.. i just needed to get it out there. just please respect mine and his relationship and that me and him are together becuz we love each other and i don't want anyone coming in between that. i would never go and do that to someone else's relationship. after everything me and him have been through... we have finally made it to this point where we are really ready for it and i have such a good feeling about this. me and him deserve to be happy.. together. i've allready been through enough drama and jealousy issues... i just don't want to deal with it anymore. if you were trying to fix things with your ex that you absolutely loved.. and you finally reach that point where you are happy and the fighting has lifted and you smile again when you think of them... an dyou finally are offically a couple again.. you wouldn't want someone trying to get with them. it's just disrespectful. if he was single and looking that would be diff. but he's not... me and him have come this far and got back together after so much time for a reason. we love each other very much. and nothing can break that. he says i can trust him. and i really feel like i have nothing to worry about this time. i just hope i am not wrong. but i'm liking the more positive way of thinking. it just makes me happier and nicer... if he says i can trust him and that he really does love me. than i believe him... what happened in the past is in the past. its a new beginning for us. and it's off to a really good start. me and him both deserve this.. and deserve to be happy.
i began this as just a quick, short update.. and i started rambling. i'm sorry. it happens. i just can't stress enough how i need/want ppl/girls to respect the fact that me and him are a couple. and there is no use even trying. trust me. he's stuck around for 17 months for a reason : )
and lastly.... ummm CIRCUT has a show this thursday at the myspace cafe. and youuuu should come and check them out becuz they pretty much tore the place down on friday and you know they will do it again. it's a fun time. so come bitches ; )
nothing is really going on... i'm getting my car within a week. ::i hope:: i think we are mainly leaning towards the saturn ion in white? who knows. i don't even care i just NEED a fucking car. and i need to find a new job. mine is way too boring for me to handle. it's so repetitive and easy... it's quite annoying. i mean yeah i make pretty good money... but i rather be constantly doing something. and i actually kind of what to get back into retail. but who knows. i hate office jobs becuz all i do is sit all day. but i will stick with it until i find something else becuz if i don't have a job.. that means no car.
and umm. CIRCUT kicked ass friday night at the myspace cafe. i was so fucking proud of them. too bad more ppl didn't stick around. seriously. they were headlining for a reason. dumbfucks.
lately i have been happier with things... i have been getting closer to some ppl which makes me happy. i like feeling like i belong somewhere. as of yesterday morning.. me and rich are offically back together <3 and it makes me happyy and i really hope he is happy too. we are getting along so good now. i like yesterday was the first day in awhile that we didn't fight... we didn't even bicker one bit. : ) he told me that he really does love me and that he promises me i can trust him. but we will see... the trust needs to be gained back a little still.. but it is getting there. i really don't think he would be stupid enough to fuck this up again right? he confessed some thing to me... i won't say what. but it was a pretty big deal i guess you could say. and it kinda proved me right all along. but i really think that both of us are ready for this. i just hope i don't get disappointed becuz i haven't been this content in a long time. and me and him decided to keep the same date as it was before.. becuz really in the past.. about year and half we have only gone as long as 2 days without seeing each other. we had something all along and all the time and everything we went through.. good or bad is making me and him stronger now. actually.. tomorrow with be 17 months : )i just hope he is as happy about this as i am.
there's really nothing in my life i can complain about. the only thing at the moment really is that i can't sleep at all. and my back/arm hurts really bad. blah. and i wish he was here. but it's ok... i'm hoping i get to see him sometime later today at least.
and btw, back off. he's mine. and no this isn't going out to any certain person. i am just saying... please respect the fact that me and him have been through a lot together and it's obvious that me and him want this to work or we wouldn't be boyfriend and girlfriend right now. i don't want to be overprotective or anything. all i ask is for some respect. respect for the fact that he IS my boyfriend and that he is with me for a reason. and he has been with me for the past 17 months for a reason. we love each other and i am so sick of things/ppl coming between us. so to whoever reads this. maybe it won't even apply to anyone who reads this.. i just needed to get it out there. just please respect mine and his relationship and that me and him are together becuz we love each other and i don't want anyone coming in between that. i would never go and do that to someone else's relationship. after everything me and him have been through... we have finally made it to this point where we are really ready for it and i have such a good feeling about this. me and him deserve to be happy.. together. i've allready been through enough drama and jealousy issues... i just don't want to deal with it anymore. if you were trying to fix things with your ex that you absolutely loved.. and you finally reach that point where you are happy and the fighting has lifted and you smile again when you think of them... an dyou finally are offically a couple again.. you wouldn't want someone trying to get with them. it's just disrespectful. if he was single and looking that would be diff. but he's not... me and him have come this far and got back together after so much time for a reason. we love each other very much. and nothing can break that. he says i can trust him. and i really feel like i have nothing to worry about this time. i just hope i am not wrong. but i'm liking the more positive way of thinking. it just makes me happier and nicer... if he says i can trust him and that he really does love me. than i believe him... what happened in the past is in the past. its a new beginning for us. and it's off to a really good start. me and him both deserve this.. and deserve to be happy.
i began this as just a quick, short update.. and i started rambling. i'm sorry. it happens. i just can't stress enough how i need/want ppl/girls to respect the fact that me and him are a couple. and there is no use even trying. trust me. he's stuck around for 17 months for a reason : )
and lastly.... ummm CIRCUT has a show this thursday at the myspace cafe. and youuuu should come and check them out becuz they pretty much tore the place down on friday and you know they will do it again. it's a fun time. so come bitches ; )