just fuck it
well, today was a wonderful day, until now. i was happy as hell. i dont even remember the last day i was this happy. so long ago. i actually sorta enjoyed math. WOW thats a huge surprise. maybe it was because the lesson was easy. but all day i was happy, starting 4th period, thanks guys! and especially after 4th period was great. well, matt had asked out melissa kobylarz in the morning, yes he likes her now. i just dont see how if matt has liked me since 3rd grade could have lasted only 29 days. at least i broke my record of 27 days with chris. wow i dont even want to talk about chris right now. at least he actually cares about me. :)
the smiles quickly fade away from my face. im ashamed to admit ive been thinking about cutting, i dont know why, ill ruin my life, and i dont want to become a victim. sorry sara. maybe ill just do it a little, so i dont bleed. but i dont no...............
yeah well having fun all day, i was the happiest ever. im repeating myself. well i was just talking to matt a couple mins ago and just look at this. could he be anymore of an @$$hole???
Foxee206: hi...
SoCcErSpOnGe212: hey
SoCcErSpOnGe212: r u still mad
Foxee206: no
SoCcErSpOnGe212: fhhew
SoCcErSpOnGe212: wat a releif
Foxee206: but u lied to me
Foxee206: that pisses me off
SoCcErSpOnGe212: about wat
Foxee206: if you didnt lie to me you realize i wouldnt have old you off right?
SoCcErSpOnGe212: watd i lie about
Foxee206: u said we should take a break becuz u dont want to hurt me but u like melissa
SoCcErSpOnGe212: haha, u dont wanna go there
SoCcErSpOnGe212: trust me
Foxee206: yes i do
Foxee206: TELL ME NOW
Foxee206: or ill have my frends chase you down again
Foxee206: trust me theyd luv to:)
SoCcErSpOnGe212: its too complictaed
Foxee206: i dont care
Foxee206: EXPLAIN NOW
SoCcErSpOnGe212: and who r u kidding there all my friends too
SoCcErSpOnGe212: u couldnt no
Foxee206: wat?
SoCcErSpOnGe212: u werent in our fourth grade class
SoCcErSpOnGe212: so u cant understand it
Foxee206: wat the hell r u talking about
SoCcErSpOnGe212: xactly
Foxee206: shut up okay?
SoCcErSpOnGe212: okay
Foxee206: im just getting more angry at you
SoCcErSpOnGe212: no
SoCcErSpOnGe212: sto[
SoCcErSpOnGe212: stop
SoCcErSpOnGe212: gtg
Foxee206: and i dont even no wat the hell to think becuz i dont kno wats going on and im going through fazes where i like you then i dont
Foxee206: wait
Foxee206: can we just talk for a bit?
Foxee206: please
SoCcErSpOnGe212: i wish we cud
Foxee206: i dont understand how u liking me since 3rd grade went like that
Foxee206: so w/e
SoCcErSpOnGe212: just 2 words
SoCcErSpOnGe212: pardon me
Foxee206: ????/
SoCcErSpOnGe212 signed off at 9:01 PM
yeah well FUCK YOU YOU PIECE OF SHIT. NO GIRL WILL EVER WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU UNLESS YOU CHANGE U FUCKING PLAYER. you kissed me 11 times and i even kissed you a couple times. we danced at the dance. and you told caity our relationship was boring???!!! hey, if you wanted to makeout with me, then dont get grounded every weekend dumb ass! and whos the bitch, you never called me ONCE, asshole. like i said yesterday, i can find sum1 better.
hey guess wat? in case you didnt kno raulston boger hates me. if you ever hear her saying anything about me please tell me! :):):) in the begginning of the year she called me mean things, and today she started asking people if i was anorexic. well, this feels very good. lots of people have asked me right to my face if i was anorexic. sum of my frends moms feed me even x~tra food becuz they prolly think the same. well, thank you, now that i feel excluded as usual, can u make me feel any worse? okay the reasons why im soooooo skinny are...
~ my mommy was the same
~ i have a fast metabolism
~ i run as fast as hell (but i love running!)
yeeeeeeeeah my mommy says i have a "super model" body. hopefully shes not lying to me to try to make me feel better. i fi cant be a singer i will be a model. i kno NYC will take me bec becuz me and my sisters and my mommy were models there. lucky for me. i think i get too caught up in my looks. sumtimes i scare myself and i think i act too selfish becuz i find myself staring at myself in the mirror. its kinda scary. well i dont think ill be cutting myself beuz its not worth my time. maybe ill feel better soon.
Love,
ME!
EVERYONE PRAY FOR ME~ that at least ONE time in my life i get to go out or makeout with Brendan Welch! OMFG HE IS AN EXTREMELY HOTT 10TH GRADER! my sisters bf's frend!
I LOVE YOU ALL. PLEZ PRAY FOR ME!
the smiles quickly fade away from my face. im ashamed to admit ive been thinking about cutting, i dont know why, ill ruin my life, and i dont want to become a victim. sorry sara. maybe ill just do it a little, so i dont bleed. but i dont no...............
yeah well having fun all day, i was the happiest ever. im repeating myself. well i was just talking to matt a couple mins ago and just look at this. could he be anymore of an @$$hole???
Foxee206: hi...
SoCcErSpOnGe212: hey
SoCcErSpOnGe212: r u still mad
Foxee206: no
SoCcErSpOnGe212: fhhew
SoCcErSpOnGe212: wat a releif
Foxee206: but u lied to me
Foxee206: that pisses me off
SoCcErSpOnGe212: about wat
Foxee206: if you didnt lie to me you realize i wouldnt have old you off right?
SoCcErSpOnGe212: watd i lie about
Foxee206: u said we should take a break becuz u dont want to hurt me but u like melissa
SoCcErSpOnGe212: haha, u dont wanna go there
SoCcErSpOnGe212: trust me
Foxee206: yes i do
Foxee206: TELL ME NOW
Foxee206: or ill have my frends chase you down again
Foxee206: trust me theyd luv to:)
SoCcErSpOnGe212: its too complictaed
Foxee206: i dont care
Foxee206: EXPLAIN NOW
SoCcErSpOnGe212: and who r u kidding there all my friends too
SoCcErSpOnGe212: u couldnt no
Foxee206: wat?
SoCcErSpOnGe212: u werent in our fourth grade class
SoCcErSpOnGe212: so u cant understand it
Foxee206: wat the hell r u talking about
SoCcErSpOnGe212: xactly
Foxee206: shut up okay?
SoCcErSpOnGe212: okay
Foxee206: im just getting more angry at you
SoCcErSpOnGe212: no
SoCcErSpOnGe212: sto[
SoCcErSpOnGe212: stop
SoCcErSpOnGe212: gtg
Foxee206: and i dont even no wat the hell to think becuz i dont kno wats going on and im going through fazes where i like you then i dont
Foxee206: wait
Foxee206: can we just talk for a bit?
Foxee206: please
SoCcErSpOnGe212: i wish we cud
Foxee206: i dont understand how u liking me since 3rd grade went like that
Foxee206: so w/e
SoCcErSpOnGe212: just 2 words
SoCcErSpOnGe212: pardon me
Foxee206: ????/
SoCcErSpOnGe212 signed off at 9:01 PM
yeah well FUCK YOU YOU PIECE OF SHIT. NO GIRL WILL EVER WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU UNLESS YOU CHANGE U FUCKING PLAYER. you kissed me 11 times and i even kissed you a couple times. we danced at the dance. and you told caity our relationship was boring???!!! hey, if you wanted to makeout with me, then dont get grounded every weekend dumb ass! and whos the bitch, you never called me ONCE, asshole. like i said yesterday, i can find sum1 better.
hey guess wat? in case you didnt kno raulston boger hates me. if you ever hear her saying anything about me please tell me! :):):) in the begginning of the year she called me mean things, and today she started asking people if i was anorexic. well, this feels very good. lots of people have asked me right to my face if i was anorexic. sum of my frends moms feed me even x~tra food becuz they prolly think the same. well, thank you, now that i feel excluded as usual, can u make me feel any worse? okay the reasons why im soooooo skinny are...
~ my mommy was the same
~ i have a fast metabolism
~ i run as fast as hell (but i love running!)
yeeeeeeeeah my mommy says i have a "super model" body. hopefully shes not lying to me to try to make me feel better. i fi cant be a singer i will be a model. i kno NYC will take me bec becuz me and my sisters and my mommy were models there. lucky for me. i think i get too caught up in my looks. sumtimes i scare myself and i think i act too selfish becuz i find myself staring at myself in the mirror. its kinda scary. well i dont think ill be cutting myself beuz its not worth my time. maybe ill feel better soon.
Love,
ME!
EVERYONE PRAY FOR ME~ that at least ONE time in my life i get to go out or makeout with Brendan Welch! OMFG HE IS AN EXTREMELY HOTT 10TH GRADER! my sisters bf's frend!
I LOVE YOU ALL. PLEZ PRAY FOR ME!