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i feel like crying.
im really not looking forward to going back to all the stupid highschool drama. last year was miserable.
when me and brandon started going out, no one was for us. people told brandon i was cheatiing on him with jake ; random people would talk to me online and say that brandon didnt really like me or just plain call me a slut ; someone who id like to think i was close with completely stopped talking to me in lieu of it all ; his friends caused a bunch of drama and i know they all said mean things about me disregarding the fact that none of them had ever even met me ; no one ever had nice things to say to me about brandon everyone just told me how dumb i was because he was only going to hurt me.
and when we werent together for a while, i was wicked upset and it got to be unhealthy, and all anyone could do was say 'i told you so' and rub it in my face that they thought they were right about brandon. the only reason jake ever even talked to me was because he thought since i wasnt with brandon maybe id be with him.
yeah well fuck you, you cant ruin this year
i gurantee i am happier than any of you
i know exactly what i want and i have it.
the second any of you are happy i should be the first one to try and make you miserable and start drama about it, and spread lots of rumors, but i wouldnt. all of you know i'll be the first person to be honestly happy for you.
and this is a really mean entry. and i'll want to go back and delete it later. but i wont. because its my journal. and if everyone else is allowed to write shit about their feelings for my boyfriend, and how much they hate me for being with brandon in their journals i have every right to leave this in here. especially since mine actually has a valid point.
you've all accomplished so much
im still with brandon, still happy
i just dont like any of you very much
the first person to leave a dumb comment trying to start drama completely missed the point of this entry. so save whatever shit you have to say about me for the next sleepover, or the next drunk party where you and your friends have nothing better to do then discuss my life.
im sick of feeling like i am just some girl who came along and got in the way of what everyone else wanted. and im wicked sick of everyone feeling sorry for themselves, and blaming everyone else for what they dont have when its their own faults. (ie; if i was your girlfriend, maybe its not brandons fault i left you.. maybe you were just a dick). perhaps.
im aware its over this is just the one big fuck you i never got to say.
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im really not looking forward to going back to all the stupid highschool drama. last year was miserable.
when me and brandon started going out, no one was for us. people told brandon i was cheatiing on him with jake ; random people would talk to me online and say that brandon didnt really like me or just plain call me a slut ; someone who id like to think i was close with completely stopped talking to me in lieu of it all ; his friends caused a bunch of drama and i know they all said mean things about me disregarding the fact that none of them had ever even met me ; no one ever had nice things to say to me about brandon everyone just told me how dumb i was because he was only going to hurt me.
and when we werent together for a while, i was wicked upset and it got to be unhealthy, and all anyone could do was say 'i told you so' and rub it in my face that they thought they were right about brandon. the only reason jake ever even talked to me was because he thought since i wasnt with brandon maybe id be with him.
yeah well fuck you, you cant ruin this year
i gurantee i am happier than any of you
i know exactly what i want and i have it.
the second any of you are happy i should be the first one to try and make you miserable and start drama about it, and spread lots of rumors, but i wouldnt. all of you know i'll be the first person to be honestly happy for you.
and this is a really mean entry. and i'll want to go back and delete it later. but i wont. because its my journal. and if everyone else is allowed to write shit about their feelings for my boyfriend, and how much they hate me for being with brandon in their journals i have every right to leave this in here. especially since mine actually has a valid point.
you've all accomplished so much
im still with brandon, still happy
i just dont like any of you very much
the first person to leave a dumb comment trying to start drama completely missed the point of this entry. so save whatever shit you have to say about me for the next sleepover, or the next drunk party where you and your friends have nothing better to do then discuss my life.
im sick of feeling like i am just some girl who came along and got in the way of what everyone else wanted. and im wicked sick of everyone feeling sorry for themselves, and blaming everyone else for what they dont have when its their own faults. (ie; if i was your girlfriend, maybe its not brandons fault i left you.. maybe you were just a dick). perhaps.
im aware its over this is just the one big fuck you i never got to say.
end.