surgery.[number2]

[__fallwithme]

meet the surgeon tomorrow.
i'm fucking nervous.
i know it's a much smaller surgery, but
if something goes wrong they may have to
convert to an open operation
and i can't do 6 more weeks of nothing.
i can't sleep in the hospital by myself every night
for a freaking week.
i can't miss 6 weeks of work again.

i'm scared to death.
i really really am.
there is so much that could go wrong.
and it all could go right.
and i'm terrified.

:(