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I never thought that break ups would suck so bad.
We have so much history now, and everything I see reminds me of you.
You were my first everything.
Remember that day when you came over the first week of school in 9th grade, and we were supposed to watch Dawsons Creek? My cousins were there, and were annoying to a great extreme. Our intentions of watching Dawsons Creek didnt go very far. We talked the whole time, and that was possibly the best talk I've ever had. Remember the day you asked me out? I had cheerleaidng practice right before it and I was so sweaty. When I got there, you told me I smelled good. I loved it. We watched Saved By The Bell, and I layed on you, legs on your lap included. Remember how you held my hand and then looked at my and asked me out? I said yes, and I went in "for the kill" haha, that kiss was the funniest thing Ive ever heard. You know what Im talking about.
Our first Christmas together was amazing. 5 days before it was even better. ;). That bracelet you gave me for Christmas I will keep forever. Oh gosh, and our first fight in January! Oh lord that was a horrible fight. It was the first time that you ever saw me cry. Valentines day was not what I expected it to be, but still amazing. You got mad at me for not saying thank you the moment I saw you for the flowers. I still have those flowers. I really appreciated them, even if I didnt say it right away. Sorry about that.
Then the summer came. Oh, the summer. We talked for months about the summer before it actually came. We made so many plans, like me sneaking over your house to sleep over. Haha, that never happened but we had so many amazing times anyways. Every day we hung out, it seemed like. We were inseperitable. Remember when your grandfather used to catch us sneaking around, but never cared? I love your grandfather.
For my birthday you gave me that bear and named him "Ross King". I love that bear. He still sits on my bed every time that I make it. Mm, and he still smells good like your cologne. I remember summer nights when we would just lay in your old house's basement, and you would rub my head. We'd talk about the dumbest things and watch movies. Sometimes we'd go out with your friends, and although I never told you this, I always loved it when you would whisper things in my ear like "I love you" while we were with them. Oh gosh, and how could I forget about the beach? One of the best experiences Ive ever had! 3 days together non stop. Too bad your mom wouldnt let us sleep in the same bed, we could have cuddled all night. We spent hours every day together, and then we'd spend 4 more hours on the phone at night. We devoted that summer to eachother, and I dont regret a moment of it.
Then school started. Everything got messy right there. You used to sneak over after school and we'd cuddle. We missed eachother so much because we couldnt be together every day anymore. Remember when my mom came home while we were together? Haha, worst experience of my life. I almost cried. Never forget that time, because that was when I knew that you really did love me, not just some dumb love that people say there are in. If you didnt love me, you wouldnt ahve stayed there while my mom was yelling at me.
We tried so hard to be together just as much as we used to be, but somehow things didnt work like that. I made new friends, your friends seemed to be your top priority, and we just didnt make enough time for eachother anymore. I loved going up to your house in Bedford on the weekends though. Laying together watching movies like the summer. Perfect.
Im not blaming anyone here for why things didn't work out with us. And who knows, maybe things will work out for us. 1 year and 4 months is something that I just cant throw away, and I wont do it. Im not going to give up on you as a person, so I hope that you wont give up on me.
Things are going to be rough for a while, guaranteed. Its going to kill me every time I see you in school, but I think this distance will do us both well, and I know you feel the same way. I know I called you last night crying saying how much I miss you, but I cant do that to you anymore, it's not fair. I need to realize that if we're meant to be, we will be. Dont forget my phone #, and never be afraid to call me. I know that goes the same way for me. I love you, and dont EVER forget that.
We have so much history now, and everything I see reminds me of you.
You were my first everything.
Remember that day when you came over the first week of school in 9th grade, and we were supposed to watch Dawsons Creek? My cousins were there, and were annoying to a great extreme. Our intentions of watching Dawsons Creek didnt go very far. We talked the whole time, and that was possibly the best talk I've ever had. Remember the day you asked me out? I had cheerleaidng practice right before it and I was so sweaty. When I got there, you told me I smelled good. I loved it. We watched Saved By The Bell, and I layed on you, legs on your lap included. Remember how you held my hand and then looked at my and asked me out? I said yes, and I went in "for the kill" haha, that kiss was the funniest thing Ive ever heard. You know what Im talking about.
Our first Christmas together was amazing. 5 days before it was even better. ;). That bracelet you gave me for Christmas I will keep forever. Oh gosh, and our first fight in January! Oh lord that was a horrible fight. It was the first time that you ever saw me cry. Valentines day was not what I expected it to be, but still amazing. You got mad at me for not saying thank you the moment I saw you for the flowers. I still have those flowers. I really appreciated them, even if I didnt say it right away. Sorry about that.
Then the summer came. Oh, the summer. We talked for months about the summer before it actually came. We made so many plans, like me sneaking over your house to sleep over. Haha, that never happened but we had so many amazing times anyways. Every day we hung out, it seemed like. We were inseperitable. Remember when your grandfather used to catch us sneaking around, but never cared? I love your grandfather.
For my birthday you gave me that bear and named him "Ross King". I love that bear. He still sits on my bed every time that I make it. Mm, and he still smells good like your cologne. I remember summer nights when we would just lay in your old house's basement, and you would rub my head. We'd talk about the dumbest things and watch movies. Sometimes we'd go out with your friends, and although I never told you this, I always loved it when you would whisper things in my ear like "I love you" while we were with them. Oh gosh, and how could I forget about the beach? One of the best experiences Ive ever had! 3 days together non stop. Too bad your mom wouldnt let us sleep in the same bed, we could have cuddled all night. We spent hours every day together, and then we'd spend 4 more hours on the phone at night. We devoted that summer to eachother, and I dont regret a moment of it.
Then school started. Everything got messy right there. You used to sneak over after school and we'd cuddle. We missed eachother so much because we couldnt be together every day anymore. Remember when my mom came home while we were together? Haha, worst experience of my life. I almost cried. Never forget that time, because that was when I knew that you really did love me, not just some dumb love that people say there are in. If you didnt love me, you wouldnt ahve stayed there while my mom was yelling at me.
We tried so hard to be together just as much as we used to be, but somehow things didnt work like that. I made new friends, your friends seemed to be your top priority, and we just didnt make enough time for eachother anymore. I loved going up to your house in Bedford on the weekends though. Laying together watching movies like the summer. Perfect.
Im not blaming anyone here for why things didn't work out with us. And who knows, maybe things will work out for us. 1 year and 4 months is something that I just cant throw away, and I wont do it. Im not going to give up on you as a person, so I hope that you wont give up on me.
Things are going to be rough for a while, guaranteed. Its going to kill me every time I see you in school, but I think this distance will do us both well, and I know you feel the same way. I know I called you last night crying saying how much I miss you, but I cant do that to you anymore, it's not fair. I need to realize that if we're meant to be, we will be. Dont forget my phone #, and never be afraid to call me. I know that goes the same way for me. I love you, and dont EVER forget that.