long time, see?

[__fading_august]

Well im listening to American Football, and boy is it the greatest. It's kind of cooled me down from being all hot and bothered earlier about staying home for just about the first time during vacation, without reason that is. Summer's been somewhat a blast, for those who have no idea, i like, and without holding back my feelings, love, this girl in my grade and i just know that it's not worth my time, especially being for my lack in being able to just walk up to someone without thinking of making myself look like an idiot. My self conscious is and always has been at a low for me, and if only i could just change it i would, and believe me, i would just hope that i get a chance in life that i can just walk up to her, or anyone else and express my deep feelings to them, and not get a laugh, or the basic, "ok???" in return. I havent had a chance to find that some people are actually compasionate enough to return their feelings to someone without having the rude intervention of calling everyone loser. I don't know what im saying really, just hoping it sounds good and how i meant for it to sound. I kinda doubt many people will comment back, let alone read this, but this girl, I find her to be different from any other girl in my grade, whether they shop at amb. &fish, or american eagle, with prada bags, w/e the hell prada is, and just has a nice, sensitive, im not like most girls but can still be fun and excellent and im rambling on just thinking about her. It's hard not know what shes thinking, or what anyone else is thinking, but i will tell everyone, that everytime i think of her, it's like an infinite haze of sunlight and a smell so pure so, erotic and wild that your heart is stunned by the thought. All i can wish and hope though is that for whoever ends up with her, that they treat her in as good a way as they can possible, no matter how much of a bitch she can become, just promise her your trust, truth, and guidance. That's all i can ask for.

well i guess im done with this en-en-en-entry.

later
w/love - Coco