Heartbroke
yea well..the last couple of days have been the darkest of my life. Guess it started a couple of nights ago when i was talking to Rebecca on msn but my internet kept chucking me off. It was angering me and it got to the point tht i jus got really upset n told her how much i loved her n everything and she sed tht Ali was on the phone which made my mood worse.. i could tell she wasnt 2 pleased with wot i was saying and she dissapeared offline..It brought me to tears.. i didnt get 1 wink of sleep tht night. Stayed online till like 4 o clock in the morning then jus watched tv...I messaged Ali bout it all telling him all i felt and he messaged me back. His Message did hurt a bit but at least i know he dnt hate me or n e thing. i know he wants this over with as do i. Next day I was gonna go to uc..was hoping Becca would be there cause it would cheer me up to see her n say hello.unfortunatly the place was shut n Callum, Gordon, Tez and wee Iggy guy whom i hate came to mines Callum was dressed up as the crow i was like wtf! it was funny u can check his fp if u wanna see the pic. We took pictures with Tez digi cam and i got angry at the wee iggy guy cause he mustve had bowel problems cause he stunk my room out :|!!! They all left apart froM Gordon at bout 4 o clock n Me n Gordon jus messed about listenin to music and we Defaced Celebrities and put corpse paint on them!! Alf Stewart from home and away and IAN BEALE!! lol we went for sumthint o eat down Tabac seen Charmaine waved at her n then we decided to go down to asda to buy Energy drinks. We got there and met this black metal fan called Wull whos a friend of Gordons..lucky guys jus back from 3 Days of Wacken..the biggest Metal Festival on earth! I should say unlucky since he was basically the walkin dead and he was working. we bought our stuff..was walkin up by the stairs n i was absolute drenched cause i put my head under tht big white thing above the stairs which was leakin like a shower n we met CHarmaine n all tht again.. I persuaded Gordon to get them Drinks and we left them n went back to Mines for a lil while. I really wish they didnt come up tho as i wasnt in 2 much mood for being with people which sucked but i put on a brave face. Next day was Yesterday.. Jus stayed on msn during the day and in the Evening went to the Pub with Duffy cause beleive me i needed to cheer up! had gr8 fun in amigos and the woman was shocked at me N Duffys Hardcore drinkin..we had shots and everything. Then we went to the woodside bar which is such a cool old mans pub! We had a drink there and a chinese guy came in selling cheap copyed dvds i bought 2.. King Arthur n sum Japanese Porno which Duffy has got the now btw :P we then played pool in the pool room and had a laugh tryin to pot balls when we..well i n e way couldnt see straight. we lied to the guy we put a pound in n it wasnt workin so i think we got a free game cant remember.. after we had finished we stole sum red balls and a bulb and a mad shitty jacket tht was hanging up and went to the Welcome 28 and the guy who works in the Woodside bar came in threatinin to cal the police so we gave the balls n bulb back n luckyly they didnt notice the Jacket! We MEt Giovanna and Laura hung arround with them for a lil while and thn went to Harleys got another drink n i took a downer n started cryin like a big wullie..aww wells Went down to the bus Station n bumped into these dudes.. i only Remember one of THem Raymond Duffy lol whom id seen at uc before..hes a cool guy nice to meet new folk and we also bumped into thee man Dazz! guess hes got a gf now! so gd for him i got home at like 20 to eleven n my gran had already went to bed n jus left the door open for me i was like..aye wit. I went on msn n had a talk to Rebecca. kinda like the one the day before... I jus left my feelings loose again and i told her i wanted to meet up with her to talk about it she promised me so i really hope she does.I have to sort this out n i beleive talkin to her 1 on 1 face to face is the only way to do so..then maybe me and Ali can be friends like before n all will be good..its wot i hope for.. rather then this utter crap! :(